I went to therapy on Monday, I've been going to therapy since last December so it's coming up to nearly a year now.
This year in therapy has taught me so much, it's given me the space I've needed to talk freely, to learn to understand my emotions and how they have become so complex over the years, It's helped me come to a point in my life where I no longer think I am worthless.
I'm worthy of life.
I'm worthy of love.
I'm so worthy!
I showed my therapist the poem I wrote recently and she welled up, she said she could feel everything in the poem I was trying to get out and she could really feel the emotions.
She welled up when I was expressing how much I need to stop dragging myself through the mud for all the things I haven't achieved because this is the first year of my life where I have gotten real help and I should be proud of myself for still being here, I have genuinely achieved so much when I actually look at my life with open eyes.
My therapist is proud of me, and that feels good.
Im making progress, slowly but surely I'm making progress.
I want to live, I feel worthy of this life now.
Don't get me wrong I still need therapy, I still need support and the safe space I've created with my therapist to carry on progressing but I feel worthy of that now.
I still live with my mental illness, I still live with suicidal ideation, I still live with intense emotion, I still live with intense mood swings, i still live with all the symptoms of borderline personality disorder but that's not stopping me from wanting to carry on!
You are all worthy of this life, you're incredible, you are resilient.
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