A few weeks ago, I became despondent with this platform. The addiction, performance, curated personas, and the desperate need for external validation was draining to witness. It felt empty and I began unpacking where I derive aspects of my worth because social media is definitely one of them. I got angry at Instagram, drained by rude DM’s because I’d somehow disappoint someone by failing to meet their expectations of me from over the years. Ashamed, I felt tied to a narrative I’ve been growing out of. My Instagram became a “thing” when I started sharing my healing journey after getting diagnosed with a chronic illness because of complex ptsd (yes, stress kills). A lot of my life is entangled with this platform, it’s how most of my clients find me, how many collaborations have started (@onbeinginyourbody for example), and how I’ve connected with incredible human beings who made me feel inspired and less alone (like, you). But, there is so much more to me than I let you see because I too fear what will happen if I leave this box; the one of the sick, sad girl who wrote through her pain and eventually became a counselor. As a society, we tend to keep survivors in a box, inspired by their stories as if it’s supposed to define them for the rest of their lives. I am not my trauma, and although it’ll always be a part of me, I am also so much more. I’ve noticed over the past few months that for some people it's been hard to accept, and my impulse is to say “I’m sorry,” but no one should be sorry for healing. I’ve started the transition into posting the ways I build resilience through my love for creative writing (which I also studied in school), design, movement meditation, social justice, raising other voices, and my many idiosyncrasies. I created this space because vulnerability and transparency weren’t as popular years ago and I wanted to speak up about invisible illnesses. I’m still doing that, but in a different way. And if that means our paths will part, I’m deeply grateful to have connected with you and wish you everything that is whole in this world. If you’re sticking around, I deeply appreciate you and can’t wait to keep connecting.