Long ass post!
Attempts at chronicling this cheap and cheerful velvet tee that reads "young & fearless." Though unsuccessful, i thought i would share a bit on why i bought this top to begin with ! I was a scared kid. I slept on my parents floor or in my sisters bed until i moved out of the house. I was scared of what people thought. I was so careful. I shrank back. I think my disordered eating definitely is intertwined with this fear--fear of failure, fear of dissapointing other people, and fear / concern about how i was perceived. I even drove to an audition in California with my headshots and all the gumption in the world...until i arrived and couldnt get out of the car because of my fear. Owning AAV has been so liberating. As has being in my 30s. I suffered greatly in late 2014 / all of 2015 from things that happened in my personal life. I didnt want to live. I was in the depths of despair. I felt so much soul pain in those days that i fear almost nothing now. If i lived to see the other side of that pain, maybe im supposed to be right where i am. Through this store, through your love, through family and faith, i came out stronger. What didnt kill me made me bolder after a rebirth... of course fear of failing and fucking up is still real but its quieter now that it ever has been... the only thing that is certain in life is that it ends. This shirt is a reminder to me to kick ass, love hard, try again. I bought this shirt for the 20 year old who couldnt get out of that car in Los Angeles. Middle aged and working on being fearless. Maybe i can make that one ? It would be black though.
I encourage my babes. My high school sweet girls...do not be afraid. Life is so much richer when you lose the fear of failure / judgement / etc etc ...
I love you.
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