It’s always strange to revisit a place where, many years ago, you used to spend a lot of time. Especially when that place, in your mind, is tied to someone who is no longer a part of your life.
I was referred; by my GP, to Birmingham Healthy Minds for an assessment. It was suggested to me that I might benefit from some CBT, to help me with my relationship with disordered eating.
The woman who assessed me today, her name was Hollie, was incredible. The way she spoke to me, her tone of voice, put me at ease from the moment she introduced herself. She told me how much time we’d have to talk and walked me through what she was interested in covering with me. She told me her objectives, reassured me about confidentiality and helped me fill out one of those “In the last 2 weeks I’ve felt...” forms. She read the notes that I wrote and told me that they were a better summery than what she sees from some Doctors!
And then I talked, I cried, I told her about my experiences over the last two years and I feel like I accurately portrayed what I needed to. Hollie was incredibly professional AND empathetic, as I opened up to her. She gave me room, she made eye contact and gently nudged me into providing her with what she needed to help me.
I’ve had SO FUCKING MANY of these assessments now. I’ve always found them difficult. My history is long and complicated and professionals have never hesitated to make me fully aware of that (like I didn’t already know) until today.
We agreed that CBT would be good for me and she assured me that she could tell that I was willing to put in the work - of which there would be lots and it will be hard. She also made me understand much more about why I need “break” period, between leaving Group and having further therapy, which I have hated the thought of in the past. I should be starting at some time in January.
This has been a massive breakthrough in my quest to find suitable, short term, professional support, to help me manage my mental health. I could weep. In fact, I have... A lot.
Don’t give up, gang. The right help for you is out there and, if you feel like you need it, I urge you to not stop looking until you find it!