You guys I may be trying Project 52 for next year! I'd love to hear some tips from you all and how to be successful. Also don't be super lame and report my image, a naked baby in her mamas arms that's all.
"The best love is the kind that awakens the soul; that makes us reach for more, that plants the fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. That’s what I hope to give you forever." — The Notebook
I woke this morning to my mini man fast asleep under the coffee table. The light was barely starting to shine through. We may not be in our ideal situation, but I am so thankful that I get to be here with them. My only wish is that my babies never remember the struggles we face today. But instead we bridge or gaps and face our demons to yield a better tomorrow.
I have noticed in the last few weeks now than ever the continuous changes in my kiddos. They are growing and maturing so much, and it stopped me in my tracks when you human tornado asked to help wash dishes. Are my days off her being a baby nearing their end? When will be the last night she asks to sleep in my bed, or for her KiKi? Please stop growing kiddos!
Lately, I have struggled with my own self image. I've worried about what people might think of my weight or double chin. Tonight, I saw this picture and instantly felt guilty. What if I somehow instill in my children that how they appear is not good enough? Look at how perfect she is! I would never forgive myself if I justified her doubting or questioning her beauty. Love yourself, and in turn teach your kids to love themselves.
In the last two weeks, I have seen immense developmental growth with this little stud. He had learned SO many new words! He has become more independent, and the opened mouth baby kisses have been replaced by real kisses. My baby is growing and everything is changing before my eyes. I'm so proud to be his mom. I feel like this sweet boy is destined for great things, and I am so excited to stand by his side through it all.
4 years ago, I was blessed with opportunity to be a mom. It has been the scariest, most challenging, and yet most rewarding job I have ever done. To know that the life of these two perfect humans are entrusted to me, scares me every day of my life. I can love them with every ounce of my being, but what if it isn't enough? I am so thankful to celebrate mother's day this year, because mother's day means that every sleepless night, every challenging day, every struggle is for two little people other than myself. Somehow that makes each challenge worth it. So while many, even myself, say thank you Mom, today I say thank you Leyla and Brecklund. Thank you for blessing me with the greatest job I will ever have, and thank you for loving me through my mistakes.
My sweet Brecklund, I love that your heart is so big, it doesn't fit in your chest. I love that your mind is so curious that you never cease to explore. I love that your emotions are so profound that you fix anyone's sadness with your compassion. You make everything in my life perfect. Your messy little face makes me laugh. Your crocodile tears remind me that we are all human. Your laughter is breath taking. I pray that you always know what a beautiful soul you are, and never let anyone steal your happiness, curiosity, or passion from you.