This week's kut ceremony has me all sorts of messed up. I didn't know how ungrounded I was until the night before the ceremony, I sat down to pray/meditate. As soon as my eyes closed, immediately a young man appeared and he did not look good...he looked ill, disturbed, in grief. He did not give off a good positive vibe.
I quickly jumped up and ran to my kitchen to prep ingredients for a cleansing quick mini ritual. I had to send the spirit of that weird young man away, restore balance within my home. A small part of me was also doubtful of myself but I have experienced this way too many times to just brush it off.
As soon my ingredient were ready, made my exorcism/cleansing concoction I throughly went around my house, and then exited out of my front door. There, the battle just begins. I throw my knives down in attempt to cast out the negativity through my body with my general warrior gods. The knives land favorably, but I cast my knives again to make sure that energy had left. I finish and complete my mini cleansing ritual with the ripping of the five color fabric.
Next morning, I was brushing my teeth and somehow began to choke. But it didn't make any sense, how or why I was choking. I felt my throat was cut off and I couldn't breathe, felt myself turn blue and heard my partner call my name out of concern. I felt my eyes roll back and then somehow it just stopped. I quickly gathered my spirit tools and headed to the ceremony kut site. I asked my spirit mom about the ancestor spirit of the client whom we are doing a ceremony for. I asked her if among the ancestors, is there a young man who passed away...in a violent way. She told me that there is an ancestor spirit, the clients older brother passed away young from suicide by hanging. I felt a chill, and I knew I should never doubt what my gods tell me. I'm even more nervous about my future to come, I know I have big shoes to fill with my spirit mother legacy.
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