"Every night her thoughts weighed heavily on her soul but every morning she would get up to fight another day, every night she survived." People often ask me how I'm so happy and positive all the time, and when they do I feel very conflicted on how to answer because although I aim to be seen as a happy and positive person, I also don't want to create this unrealistic image of myself, and would hate if a delusion of constant positivity made anyone else feel inferior. So here's the reality guys;
I appear happy and positive a majority of the time because I put a lot of effort into having that mindset. The reality is that this doesn't always come easily to me and often times I feel the way this picture looks - depressed, anxious, exhausted, and drained. I try to focus on the positives though. I try to see the good in each person, each situation, even each hardship I endure. I don't want to be sad, angry, or negative so I continue to make the decision to smile through it and try to enjoy life to the best of my ability. Happiness isn't just given to me, I choose it.
I'm not always perfect at it, and sometimes I'm exhausted from trying and break down, but I've learned through experience that life is a hell of a lot better if you're open to happiness! 💗 Focus on the positives, but know that it's also okay not to feel okay.