This was pretty much me all of yesterday! I mean how could I move with this sweet thing on me!
😩💕😍 I'm still experiencing derealisation and it can get really frustrating sometimes. I know it's passing and I can tell that it's nearly completely gone, but it can catch my attention at times and make me feel a little down. I've learnt enough to stop that negative thinking cycle, breathe and let it be. Replacing those negative thoughts with positive and hopeful ones can change my mood and get me out of that funk.
The other day I was thinking about the feelings I experienced when the depersonalisation and derealisation started. I remember feeling different. I felt off and everything around me felt weird and unfamiliar. It was similar to that feeling you get when you come home from a long holiday and your house feels different. That's what is was like but for everything, and it was very unsettling. I thought that feeling of familiarity would return but it never did.
I adapted to the new feeling and only recently accepted that things would never feel the same as before. Things have changed and I have grown. Change can be scary and that feeling of unfamiliarity can be uncomfortable, but from this whole experience I have learnt how to embrace change and use it to move forward.
This quote by Horacio Jones really helped change my perception about what I was experiencing and helped me embrace change - "Instead of saying, "I'm damaged, I'm broken, I have trust issues" say "I'm healing, I'm rediscovering myself, I'm starting over."