If there is one thing I've had to learn over the past 4 years it is how to be happy even when life feels like it's working against you.
I've always been a positive, happy person but when CFS came along, the things that made me happy: training at the gym, socialising, working, studying and going on adventures were all stripped from me. I could barely walk to the letterbox yet go to the gym, I struggled to have conversations with even my partner at the time and working and socialising were luxuries I could no longer afford with such limited energy.
Depression crept in as I realised my limitations and most days I grieved for the life I once had. But it didn't take me long to get tired of my own bullshit and realise that this was all happening for a greater purpose.
While some days were and still are difficult, I decided that despite what was happening with my mind and body, I was in charge of my happiness and I was going to make this experience a positive one.
CFS was not here to punish me or make my life a living hell: it was a gift to teach me what truly matters in life, to help me find happiness in the simplest things and to force me to love myself, even at my worst.
Happiness can come to us in some unusual ways but the happiness I feel today and the secrets I have uncovered through my experience, I would not change for the world.
There is light in every experience ❤