Thank you for all who I have asked! Below is my post on the personal page... #Repost @alyparsons with @get_repost
✨My God, My God, why have you forsaken me?✨ I never really understood these words till about 2.5 months ago, when this nightmare started... I miss my mom, everyday. There isn’t a day that has gone by that I haven’t cried. I see her in everything, and would give everything to have her here now. I am so happy she is happy and out of pain, but the pain is still there and always will be... there will always be a mom shaped hole in my heart...
When we got back from Texas, my Dad and I both decided we were going to get a full workup from a doctor, we are not taking any chances, no more surprises, no more nightmares... we thought we were good, we will grieve and then start this way of life... Days before Mom’s funeral we got the news- Dad has cancer. I know what you are thinking, I thought it and said it out loud myself- Oh God please no!
Two days after Mom’s funeral we received the hardest news- Dad has stage 4 terminal pancreatic cancer, and with no treatment, he has less than 6 months.
Breathing has become a chore for me. I went from grieving daughter to grieving caregiver overnight.
Last Tuesday, it had been exactly 2 months since mom has passed and Dad started his first day of chemo. Our lives have changed. This is my new normal.
I write this not for sympathy but for prayer. Prayer that my dad has not only the will to fight, but the want to fight. Pray that I have my mother’s strength to take on this whole new level of grief. Pray for my family, as we experience a whole new level of nightmare, and all without our momma.
Thank you to everyone has already called, texted, and supported us. With me doing full time care and not working, it’s gets a little lonely, and your support and prayer is the only thing that keeps me going.
For those of you who asked, the gofundme account (in my bio) is still active if you would like the donate.
I made a promise to Mommy on her death bed that I would take care of Daddy, and I have kept my promise. Thank you for helping me do that.
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