okay, now that time to go home is approaching I'm freaking out. im wondering if im gonna be okay. im sure y'all are confused as to why, let me clarify: I found about the condition on the 22nd of August this year, we confirmed a week later and I was booked for immediate surgery where I had to have a part of my cervix removed bc I wouldn't give up my whole uterus (which I eventually will at some point). Close family and friends knew and were there full time in terms of support. The operation was a success, I was discharged shortly after. Obviously everyone was happy the situation was contained and didn't become a big thing whatsoever, but then I had a lots of complications when I got home hence why the back and forth trips to & from hospital. Things got intense and last week Monday morning I had a relapse, I ain't even know why or how, but I was hit with mad abdominal pains which I beared with until I felt really close to dying and made a decision to come back and go through it all again. My uterus was swollen and other things, again I was faced with a "complete uterus removal" or other things & I chose the latter. NOW, im on some what if I relapse again, what if there's a new set of complications. Im not ready to go through everything I went through leading up to my stay here again, I'm just not. I didn't sleep, I just couldn't. It feels safe here bc "one mistake" immediate attention is here but now that I have to leave 😔, i know i have to leave at some point. God, ongizwe phela just this once. I know the worst is over but I need new strength. .
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