It's never really been entirely about the van. I mean it's certainly a part of it but not the whole idea. It just embodies it well, the van helps tie life together in a way I find exciting and healthy.
You see, I had never been great at living in the present. My mind often wandered into thoughts of the future.. But over the past few years I've started to better understand and watch fall into place the type of lifestyle I do well in, one where I'm alive and present and more like myself.. And it's funny because although these external things like the van and the travels have created an environment for me to thrive, they're not the reason I can now say I am in a healthy place.
It's been a long journey and I know I'll always have more growing to do, more challenges to face.. but I've come to a point where I can now breath as I go. I've come to a place where my identity is so much in Christ that I'm free to be more of the person he's made me to be each day. Because in the end it's not all about the van, the outward environment in which I live. It's the internal that matters most. It's my relationship with Christ that creates this life of adventure I absolutely love.