This week I had a week-long training. The training was classroom based, which meant my a$$ was on a chair all day for five days. To top off my sedentary week, lunch was catered by someone who apparently hates vegetables. My food options ranged from pasta, chicken parm, pizza, hot wings, and sandwiches. There were two days where there was not one single vegetable present. And on days where breakfast was available, my options were bagels or danishes.
I tried to make the best decisions and select the healthiest options, but everyday was a struggle. My food options were limited and my craving were strong. On top of that, dessert (a tray of cookies and brownies) was always placed on the table in front of me.
Needles to say, I gave into my cravings. The problem is not having a treat hear and there, but when your meals are full of empty, unhealthy calories day after day, it is not good! I can tell you that the struggle was real and it ended up hurting me physically & mentally. For example, today they ordered Pizza Hut for lunch. Pizza and hot wings were my options with no time for me to go grab something else. I ended up having 3 slices of cheese pizza because I was pretty hungry. Once I was done eating, I felt like $hit. I felt anxious and was disappointed with my decisions because I know better. I know that I need to put myself first. I know that eating healthy foods is my priority and I should have made time to go buy something better to eat. But instead I tried to accommodate other people.
I know I shouldn’t be too hard on myself because this week was an exception and not the norm. But I can learn and do better next time. I can strategize and put myself first, because if I don’t do it, no one else will.