Do you know why I love Kpop and the Kpop internet scene? Because I don't feel judge. I don't feel like I have anyone to impress. I don't feel obligated to be this certain person that conforms to people's ideas and generalisations. I know this may sound weird coming from a straight white female, but irl, rn... I feel this insane amount of pressure to conform to be the perfect friend, the perfect student, the perfect individual.
I hate the fact that I feel surrounded by fake friends that really just hate and snake about my behind my back. But I also hate that sometimes this is probably my own mental state that makes me so paranoid and constantly on edge. The fact that I then just ignore it and make it excuses for these people is probably toxic and immature but I also have this fear of being alone and isolated. I look at people in a way of questioning whether they truly like me or whether they're constantly judging me. I do this to my own family members, and I know that it is stupid because I know for a fact that they love me it's just stupid insecurities getting the better of me.
So back to the reasons why I love Kpop, because on this account I can post about BTS, seventeen, EXO, EXID, Knk, twice, SNSD.. Anyone really and no one will judge just appreciate the face that we share a common interest. I could post a selca and know that people aren't going to be like 'omg why do you always use that sc filter' or 'really? That's what you wear?!'. So I just want to say thank you, because if you have got here you need an award for reading and putting up with other people's bs, but for also being accepting and inclusive to everyone in this great fandom.