#bulimia

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this isn't an edit, but I swear this is so important.
Just watch this, please.
You are perfect.

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HOTLINES:
Suicide: 1-800-784-8433
Bullying: 1-800-420-1479
Self harm: 1-800-DONT-CUT, 1-800-344-HELP
Eating disorders: 1-847-831-3438
Trans suicide: 877-565-8860
Rape and Sexual assault: 1-800-656-4673
Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255
Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386
Grief support: 1-650-321-3438
Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678
Depression: 1-800-273-8255
Abuse: 1-800-799-7233, 1-800-787-3224
After abortion: 1-866-439-4253
Textline: 741-741
Websites: 7cups.com, imalive.org
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TAGS: #secretsociety123 #starving #struggling #borderline #iwanttodie #killme #suicide #bulimia #suicidal #depressed #sad #pain #sadness #equality #pride #respect #love #happy #recovery #hope #depression #cutting #selfharmmm #fat #ugly #anxiety #selfhate #anorexia #ana #mentalillness (Tags don't apply to me. Just spreading positivity)

Q/how old are you?
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A/14

|| TRANSPARENCY || strong things and people break, too. .
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There's such a blessing and a curse involved in living your life with your heart out for display. It's the biggest blessing when you give love to those around you- friends, family, other women, strangers on the internet. I would be lying if I said my heart didn't bust at the seams with joy at all the beautiful and amazing souls in my life. I know I am very fortunate in so many ways.
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But although most days I feel strong, and brave, and steadfast in who I am- sometimes my heart breaks. .
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The danger of walking around with your guts and heart out to give, is it also makes it a target. People can chip away and tug at you more than ever before. .
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.sometimes giving love and your self to others is ultimately rewarding and keeps me sane. And nights like tonight, it can crush your soul. .
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Living life with anxiety can feel like you are walking on a tight rope, dangerously balancing so you don't fall off- all while everyone is watching and waiting to see what happens. Most, are rooting for you. Others, hang on every second waiting to watch you fall.
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I don't tell you this for any other reason than to show you that it's really fucking hard to be strong all the time. I see so many of you trying to do it all and be it all for everyone. You seek solace and comfort in seeing other strong women do what you can not. But the strongest fall the hardest. Hurt the deepest. Love the boldest. You see their triumphs and bravery and success and search for that in you. And you should. .
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But they have that brokenness, messiness. They hurt. Their hearts break. You often don't see that, the clean up of the results of a passionate persons breakdowns. .
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Because they take that hurt and use it to give more. Love more. Do more. Be more. .
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They break down. Then they show up. Loving harder than before. The passion you see? Is fueled by the wreckage. The build up from the breakdown. The work of art they piece back together. Because that's what they do. ❤

Ringing my GP today to get some more information about my heart, having chest pains today so that can't be a good sign either 😐 #Selfharmmm #suicide #cutting #mentalillness #depression #depressed #anxiety #suicidal #sad #BPD #worthless #thoughts #crying #mentalhealth #hopeless #depressionquotes #ugly #sadness #bulimia

I'm sort of having a poor-ish body image today, so I'm a little insecure about posting this. But, is figure I'd do an update. 💗 I'm in the city 🌃 with mom again, because I have an appointment this afternoon to get an MRI of my brain for the program. I'll be here until Monday. I'm actually just very nervous and paranoid over the whole thing. I don't know if I could do this. I don't really have a choice though because I don't want to let my parents down. I'm just really on edge, full of anxiety.
Oh, and my potassium turned out to be 5.6, which was high so I tried to lower it back to normal range, but ended up going too low back down to 2.9. ☹️ I can never win. It's either too low, or too high. So, I've been trying to replace it until it gets normal. Anyway, wish my luck and have a lovely day! 🌸✨🌈 #anorexiarecovery #recoveryisposssible #anorexianervosa #anotexia #ana #beatana #eatittobeatit #foodisfuel #bulimiarecovery #bulimia #bulimianervosa #edwarrior #ed #eatingdisorder #beatinged #edrecovery #edwarrior #edfamily #recoverywin

MOST RECENT

#dessert was this yoghurt with #raspberries and #maplesirup !😋 Went out yesterday with my friends and it was fine, i didn't even had the urge so selfharm!!! The sun is shining but i have to learn maths 😐 at least, eating is quite good but i feel so chubby and wobbly all the time:( but can't really workout bc of my cold!

Я понял, почему мне хочется чувствовать не вкус, как раньше, а именно то, что пища поступает в мой желудок. Во-первых, нервы. Потому что моя мать постоянно смотрит этот отупляющий телевизор. Даже наушники не спасают, потому что я хочу тишины и поспать, потому что нужно много всего сделать. Во-вторых, Хочется просто стать МЕГА-ЖИРНОЙ и запереться в себе окончательно,разорвать все связи.
Съела все сочники. В их составе целая пачка маргарина, жирный творог, сметана, мука, яйца, дрожжи, сахар. Это у меня мать так готовит "лёгкую" выпечку. ~
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#anorexiarecovery #anorexìanervosa #anorexia #bulimia #анорексия #edrecovery #ed #рпп #пп #правильноепитание #fooddiary #foodblogger #фудблог #дневникпитания #диета #dietfood #orthorexia #orthorexiarecovery #орторексия #eatingdisorderrecovery #рекавери #фудпорн #емчтохочу #фудпорно #мирдолжензнатьчтояем #читинг #рппдневник #компульсивноепереедание #срыв #зажор

no, i'm not okay.
i need someone here for me. when i break down, i want that person to comfort me, stay with me. not someone who thinks that i'm emo and tells me to fuck off.
i need someone understanding, to understand my problems and try to understand even if they can't. not someone who just misunderstands me and says that i'm just over thinking.
i need someone to hug me, when i need a tight and warm one. someone to hug me from the back and tell me how much i mean to him. not someone who misses just only when he needs me.
i need someone to love me, through my darkest and brightest. love me for who i am, love me for what i've done. love me for my flaws and imperfection. not someone who just leaves me hanging here even after a promise they just made.
[mine🌹]

#quotes #sad #suicidal #depression #anxiety #bipolar #bulimia #scared #scars #razors #blades #cutting #selfhate #selfharm #useless #worthless #unwanted #lonely #alone

everyday i ask myself, will i ever have you forgotten? will i ever be alright? i can't even assure myself it's okay, but why am i able to tell all my friends that everything is going to be? if i'm able to tell them that, why isn't it easier to reassure myself that? why am i always being there for you, and you're always there for her? it's like standing on an unpredictable bridge, out of the whole bridge, only one inch is the unable one. when i'm standing on it with you, it's alright. but when she joins, we need space, so i move. and when i move, i accidentally step on the wrong part. and i fall.
[mine🌹]

#quotes #sad #suicidal #depression #anxiety #bipolar #bulimia #scared #scars #razors #blades #cutting #selfharm #selfhate #useless #worthless #unwanted #lonely #alone

Had a lovely time with my best friend 😊 got a skinny cappuccino and skinny popcorn 🍿 also bought some last minute bits for my mum for mothers dag, got myself a new tooth brush lol and some new face washes as well as a cream egg!!!!! for me and my sisters! Off out soon to the family party then home for work which I am not looking forward too 🙃🙃🙃
#recoverforlife #anorexia #anawho #bulimia #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #goodfood #foodie #foodporn #coffeeadict #edfamily #edrecovery #recoveryaccount

I feel really paranoid. I'm outside and I think the people who are watching and following me turned to bugs. I have bugs on my body rn, two of them, and no, I'm not hallucinating. I don't know what's happening to me, all this is new to me... well, it's come slowly so not totally new BUT AHH IDK WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME??

Buon appetito ❤ avevo un sacco di piselli e ho deciso di farci una cremina, che fame che ho 😋 ecco il mio pranzo:
🔹 crema di piselli con soli piselli, sale e pepe
🔹 fetta di pan bauletto
🔹 scaglie di parmigiano
🔹 finocchi
#cena #pranzo #colazione #palestra #sport #diet #dietasana #dieta #binge #bed #bingeeatingdisorder #diarioalimentare #food #good #cibo #sano #healthy #anoressia #ana
#mia #bulimia #anorexia #dca #breakfast #lunch #dinner #gym

'Ich kann nicht ohne dich', 'Du bist mir so wichtig'.
Und jetzt? Die juckts kein bisschen wie es mir geht!! Du bist genauso arrogant und egoistisch wie alle anderen. Du hast mit mir nur gespielt. Du weißt genau, dass ich dich aus allen Kontakten gelöscht habe. Und anstatt um mich/uns zu kämpfen lässt du es einfach links liegen.
Jedes 'Ich liebe dich' waren nur unbedeutende Worte von dir.
Alles war gelogen.
#eating #food #bulimia #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #depression #tw #triggerwarning #ed #eatingdisorder #mentalillness #ana #mia #depressed #anorexianervosa #magersucht #essstörung #staystrong

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