Last night was amazing.
I did a picnic with friends, people of my music band, their girlfriends, another man (we can call him B), and the family of one of the member of the band.
I met the girlfriend of the man I am attracted to (we can call him M) and she's sooo sweet. She's italian, like me and we get along very well. I needed to meet her in order to get better and to mourn. I really like her, together they're so cute and I'm happy for them. I'm not this kind of person who's bad with people's girlfriends.
After the picnic, we got an ice cream and we went to the docks of Paris. M and the other man of the band took their guitars and played while singing along their songs. I talked with B for hours and hours, I didn't knew him very well and that night I learnt that both of us have been broken by life. Not in the same way, not exactly by the same thing, but we felt the same.
Something was built this night, I don't know what, but it could lead to something beautiful. I believe in love, well I think. This night changed something. And maybe, together, we could learn how to live again... #suicidal#selfharm#cut#cutting#hurt#cry#depressed#fat#thin#help#life#tears#broken#hate#two#love