I was journaling earlier and noticed that as I wrote today’s date, in six months from today will be my 55th Birthday! Wow! These thoughts started to surface: What do I hope to achieve, accomplish, where do I hope to be living, doing, who will I be spending my birthday with?? I have been living in Edmonton for almost 6 months. I started this new phase of my life almost 6 months ago. I’m half way through to another Birthday. I’m still chasing the life that I want. I’m still bravely and courageously healing myself, finding myself, challenging myself every day to ‘show up’ and be the best version of myself I can be. I’m learning to love ‘the old me’ as well as the woman I am and continue to be.
The universe has continued to provide for me here. My own space, abundance of health, friends, teachers, time. I have given myself the gift of ‘time’. Time to learn the lessons I needed to learn to heal more of my inner wounds. Time to rejuvenate my body, time to love myself a little more each day by resting when I am tired, eating healthy, setting healthy boundaries for myself, meditating and quieting my mind, exercising , getting out in nature, whatever my soul longs for, I give it.
So in 6 months from today, when I turn 55, I will again say ‘thank you’ for another year, another day, another chance to learn, to grow and to love..., in peace, love and light.
55 is just a number. Age is only how you see yourself, nothing more, nothing less. It’s a mid point in life. I have lived and learned and loved so much in my almost 55 years on this planet. I have so much yet to live for. All is happening for my highest good. I am well, whole and happy and I am loving myself exactly the way I was always meant to. The self hate is gone, done, almost non existent. I don’t beat myself up like I used to for not being where I ‘think I should be’. I don’t hate myself for my mistakes, stupid shit, that got me nowhere’s in life except down a big black dark hole. I’m not going there ever again. I don’t deserve it, nobody does. Here’s to more new beginnings ❤️