I am half Chinese and I don't talk about that enough, and what's even shittier than that is I am considered one of the main body positive people representing Asians? How am I good enough? Where are all the Asians? 60% of the world are Asian and yet we are not represented. It's not just in England as well, I remember walking into a shop in Hong Kong where only one out of 6 models in the store were Chinese. And it's not seen as a problem because body positivity doesn't exist in China, not even Hong Kong which is more westernised.
I'll be honest, it's not from lack of trying. I've written for a Singaporean magazine and I actually went on Hong Kong radio last year discussing body positivity on air for the first time in Chinese history with @curvasian - but it's just so difficult because its such a non conversation, that people don't know it is a missing conversation. In Asia, you are fat, you are skinny and whatever you look like is not just up for public debate but relevant in EVERY conversation.
My race has always been a complicated issue for me and frankly the only girls who seem to get it are my Hong Kong friends. Some are mixed, some are completely Chinese but all of them get it! I can talk about either side of my culture and they know what I'm talking about. Other than that, I've always felt alone.
I could tell you a lot of stories, like how I didn't know I counted as a POC for YEARS cause a white person once told me that term was reserved for people with actual colour to their skin. Or the time my friends called me a chink casually. I had never heard this word so I myself started using it casually, thinking it was just a shortening of the word Chinese because why would my "friends" call me a derogatory term? Or even something as small as the fact that a friend once had my name in her contacts followed by a Chinese man... because my race is ALWAYS relevant.
To be honest, it's overdue and they need to be addressed, so I have. I've written a column for @theunedit where I could express my complete thoughts: "Being Not White, But White Enough". Click the link in my bio to read the full thing.