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I’m glad we’ve settled on the consensus that diet talk is the one of the most maddeningly insipid cultural practices in world, but there’s still a question left to answer: how do we handle this fuckery? How do we navigate the battlefield of conversational triggers co-workers fling across our desks? When a family member makes a fatphobic statement at Thanksgiving dinner that makes our eyes blur white with rage, what course of action are we supposed to take? As much as I want to endorse smashing plates against the wall or cross-hooking an infuriating boss square in the face, I appreciate that these tactics are probably impractical for most. But even the milder approach of a well-crafted response can get sticky – especially when things like paychecks, promotions, professional relationships, and familial connections are on the line. The reality is that many fatphobic exchanges get thrown around in situations where it’s not safe to speak up – situations where there may be severe consequences (social risks, financial risks, maybe even physical risks) for challenging other voices in the room. I’ve been chewing on this a lot over the past few days – going back and forth over the extent to which silence in these situations is an act of complicity – and here’s what I’ve come up with: speaking truth to power does not always mean being the loudest voice in the room. Speaking truth to power does not always necessitate using your voice at all. There are ways to remain silent and stay radical – disengaging from these conversations and opting out of toxic chit chat are arguably forms of noiseless protest in and of themselves. The power of dominant narratives and entrenched cultural norms only wins to the extent that they make YOU feel DISEMPOWERED. Reserving your voice for when it can best be heard and most openly received is still an act of strength. I recognize this one is tough, as the role of silence in activism is a prism of nuances and caveats and circumstances to consider. What do you guys think? Would love to hear your thoughts.

If we're being honest, I'm in complete denial about this being my body. The multiple before and afters this week are a byproduct of my mind messing with me. The mental game that comes along with this journey is a STRUGGLE, don't let anyone tell you differently.

‼️this caption is a repost of one of my older posts‼️
The thing that I used to edit out in my photos the most was my undereye bags. ✨Since I was a kid, I've had these little wrinkles under my eyes, and have always hated them. Back in September when I started Body Dysmorphic Disorder treatment, I had to identify the top 3 things about my face that caused me significant distress. These little lines followed by that not-so-subtle indentation under my eyes were the first things that I said. ✨In treatment for BDD, you do something called mirror retraining. Your therapist has you look at yourself in the mirror and describe what you see objectively, as if you were describing someone who you saw commit a crime to a detective. Medium-thick eyebrows, blue/green eyes, some dark circles, a deviated septum, thin lips. One pimple, light brown hair, medium sized ears. Could you describe yourself like that? Or are you more likely to say "huge under eye bags, crooked nose, lips that are too thin, and a huge zit"?
✨After scanning my entire face down to my neck, which takes a few minutes to describe all of the aspects, I would have to close my eyes for 10 seconds, open them, and do the whole thing over again. It takes a few minutes, and I generally would see the same face as before. After that scan, I have to close my eyes again..
✨YOU HAVE TO DO IT FOR A 3RD TIME!✨ Something magical happens this time. I see my face differently than the prior scans. My eye bags are less prominent, my zit is smaller, my nose appears slightly less crooked, and my lips are a little more thick. What the hell?
✨After a few weeks of completing this 3x/ day for homework, my therapist told me how it works. By the third time around, you actually become so BORED that your emotion and judgment become lesser, and you start to see yourself through the eyes of someone who isn't attaching judgment to every part of you. It amazes me every time I do it, because it always works. As I continue to work through my BDD, I find that the changes between 1st & 3rd scan are much less drastic. Because I have been diligent about recovery, I do not look at my face and emphasize all of the things that make me feel insecure.

Motivation Monday ✨
2015 ---------------> 2017 "Strength doesn't come from what you can do. It comes from overcoming the things you once thought you couldn't." 🙏🏻 As many of you know, the last couple years I battled with anorexia. I destroyed my body for a peace of mind I never got. Most people don't understand how much you have to hate yourself to constantly deny yourself something you know you need to survive. I look back at these photos and realize I have come so far and I'm beyond proud of myself I was able to conquer my demons. #motivationmonday #anorexia #eatingdisorderrecovery

It took me a long time to accept myself and to learn that picking at myself is taking ten steps backwards. Don't let yourself believe your small thoughts. Think big, do big and love big. I surround myself with people that love me because loving yourself isn't easy. It's not love from a lot of people but its love from enough people that matter to me. Loving others is easy when your friends and family give you so much love you have to share it. Separate yourself from negative people, they drain you of good vibes. Again, Love yourself. Hype yourself up. Today I'm my own #wcw shout to my best friend @kenzie_101 for being my number one hype woman. 😭 #lifestooshortnottobeextra #bodydysmorphia

Body Dysmorphia. A chronic obsessive view on ones body in a negative light, focusing on flaws constantly.

I never thought I would post something where I was wearing a two piece bathing suit on social media. This is the first two piece I ever wore in public for more than 15 minutes in my entire life. Trust me when I say, I was self conscious the entire time. Thinking how others may be judging me. I was scared, I was embarrassed, but I honestly forced myself not to change.

Luckily I have a group of friends that make me feel beautiful. But it has always been hard. From childhood, when I change or do anything in front of others where I need to bare skin, I hide behind my own hands and cover up as much as I can constantly. I constantly pick at myself, disliking the way I was made, wishing I could change almost everything about me.

It doesn't help I come from a community that constantly tells me I'm too dark, too short, too fat. But recently, I learned no one can ever love me the way I can love myself. No one should make me feel like I'm not good enough. So I am trying and I am stepping out of my comfort zone.

Why? Because everyone deserves to be happy and feel beautiful in their own skin. And for the next year and hopefully for a lifetime, I will work on maintaining a healthy mind, body, and soul connection. •
In the coming months, I am going to use my social media as a platform to talk about issues I've faced and issues other women struggle with on a daily basis. To help me grow to think positively and hopefully to allow others to know they are not alone. I am tired of feeling ashamed, and I'm tired of feeling like I have to be perfect.

If you consider the honesty of my life to be taboo in the coming months, feel free to unfollow me. Because it's those exact people that have made me feel completely shut down in my own community by not giving me the support to openly communicate issues dear to others and myself. I hope I can inspire others to do the same, fuck being muted.

Still struggle some days to comprehend how big I actually was compared to now. Size 20 to a size 12 and still find that hard to see in the mirror
#tbt #throwbackthursday #weightloss #betterbody #betteringmyself #bikinbody #bodydysmorphia #fitnessofig #fitforlife #slimforlife #fitfam #instafit #feelingfantastic #slimmingworld #slimmingworldmafia #slimmingworldjourney #gym #musclesaresexy #gymmotivation

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Manchester is my favourite city by far, even if it's busy I still don't feel anxious which is really amazing!

The problems seem to get bigger the longer I think about them. #runforyourlife #running4urlife

i used to struggle to claim my space in this world.
even as a little girl, i can remember wanting only to be small and fragile, delicate and dainty. i thought that was where beauty was...
if i was small, i was powerless, which meant i wouldn't be held accountable for my life.
if i wasn't held accountable for my life, i could make no wrong choices.
if i could make no wrong choices, i was closer to being perfect.
to be perfect, i needed to be small...to recoil back from taking up space.
recovery looks like a lot of things.
tonight it looks like crawling into a king size bed, and taking up as much space as humanly possible.
#nourishandeat #freedom #embrace #forgiveness #chooselifewarrior #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorders #eatingdisorderrecovery #bodypositive #bodylove #bodyimage #bodydysmorphia #bulimiarecovery #anarecovery #selflove #selfcare #selfharm #selfharmrecovery #selfloveclub #selfhaterecovery #takeupspace #ownit #creatingspace #kingsizebed

Learning to love the skin I'm in...new changes mean finding balance. I don't always like what I see and there's always room for improvement. We are our own worst critics and there comes a time when enough is enough and I just want to be healthy and happy with where I'm at. So it's okay to scale back and do what I can. I get to the gym when I have free time and I work as hard as I always do. I'm asked every time I'm at the gym "when is your next show?" Well, there's more to me, and life, than competing. So there may not be another competition and I'm okay with that. It was a goal achieved and an experience. I thank all those who supported me in the process but now I've got other things in mind... 😉 #fitmom #bodydysmorphia #mentalwellbeing #metabolismfix #loveyourcurves #nofilter

Didn't feel like a night snack after tea but now I've stayed awake too long posting those last few posts I felt in the mood for something chocolatey. Had to be low in cals due to today's fuck up with wasted calories so of course I opted for a Fibre One 90 Calories Chocolate Fudge Brownie 87cals. These are amazing tbh. Don't care if I've ate too much now as this is just what I needed after today. When my depersonalisation gets that bad from my ED I have to try and go against it by eating something I enjoy to feel more back to myself and nourished in the mind. Hope that makes sense. 😆 probably not but it is 5am so goodnight guys. 😴💋#mentalillness #depression #anxiety #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderecovery #bodydysmorphic #bodydysmorphicdisorder #bodydysmorphia #foodblog #fibreone #fibreone90calorie #fibreonechocolatefudgebrownie #chocolate #chocolateheaven #chocolatebrownie #chocolatefudge #lowcalorie #lowcaloriediet #lowcalorietreat

So second attempt at tea was the Linda McCartneys Vegetarian Burgers 68cals each but I always have to have 2 as they do not come unstuck until cooked. On a Soft Brown Sandwich Thin 92cals. I used up the Sliced Sauté potatoes I got in a breakfast ready meal so I don't know the calories for that. Added some of Asda's 50% Less Far Mature Cheese, grated 10x. And 4 Sliced Pickled Jalapeño peppers on each burger. Used a McDonalds BBQ dip for the slices. This meal definitely filled in for the previous mess up! TW: just to finish off from the last post, I've felt really suicidal and low today. Like as strong as I did before I was in hospital at Christmas time. Going out used to make me feel better before I became so Ill but it hardly works anymore so I feel so helpless and all that's left to do is end the mental suffering and die. Having depersonalisation/derealisation switched on all day doesn't help atall. Everything seemed like it was going faster than me and I could hardly hear things as I was "far away" or trapped in my own hell bubble. But after I got back to the hostel, a resident who lives here that I knew from hospital spoke to me and made me feel so much better. Just because I don't look ill, underweight and I get told that I look healthy doesn't mean I am. An ED is MENTAL, that can cause physical consequences. I've already lost 2 stone in half a year and am at the lowest side of healthy so it does make me wonder where I'll be at in a years time. #mentalillness #depression #anxiety #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderecovery #bodydysmorphic #bodydysmorphicdisorder #bodydysmorphia #foodblog #lindamccartney #lindamccartneyvegetarianburger #vegetarian #vegetarianfood #vegetarianburgers #veggieburger #veggiecheeseburger #cheeseburger #burgerporn #veganfood #veganburgers #vegancheeseburger

Day 226 of #365days #inthefaceofbdd: raising #awareness of #bodydysmorphia 1 person and 1 photo at a time. Get in touch by messaging me or on inthefaceofbdd@gmail.com. Today's photo taken by Drusilla. We're here in Sesimbra, Portugal ready for another samba filled weekend! Ive waited until 3:30am today to have my photo taken and I actually feel really tired and kinda headachey and yet as i look at this picture I really am ok with my eyes. In fact today has been a really surprising day. I've gone to the mirror several times and been really surprised by how "improved" the image i see in the mirror is. Even though i know i slept very little last night and ive actually gone to the mirror mentally preparing myself to see bags and i suppose just deal with it, even though that's been the predominant feeling I've had going into it, I've still really liked what I see. It's amazing. I'm on Day 3 of a 21 day challenge to love myself by following Louise Hay's book Mirror Work and today's affirmation in the mirror was "Everything I say to myself in the mirror today I will say with love" and it's clearly working. #bdd #bodydysmorphicdisorder #bodyimage #sesimbra #samba #portugal #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #landmark #landmarkforum #forum #mirror #mirrorwork #louisehay

Pain is sitting in front of your bedroom mirror desperately trying to find the light inside of a broken woman. Crying because she just can't see who she is anymore. She's lost and doesn't like what she sees. She knows it's the enemy trying to bring her down but at the moment she's weak. She cries alone in her room trying to find something she loves about herself that will keep her going another day. Pain is not being able to love yourself. God created her do to great things but she's too far inside of her own head that she's blinded by it. God give her the courage to fight one more day. The truth is, no one ever tells you that losing 101 pounds will change how you look at yourself. Coming from a background of battling eating disorders as a teen, I never had a positive body image of myself. In fact, I still don't. Having Body Dysmorphia doesn't mean I'm crazy, it means I truly do not see myself how others do. Instead of focusing on the positive aspects of how far my body has come, I see every single imperfection on my body and I over analyze it. I notice every flaw, things a normal person wouldn't. Today was rough but I did some yoga, toning and pilates and feel a little better. So to anyone who feels like this journey can be a burden at times, know you aren't alone. I challenge you to find one good thing you love about yourself each day. Today I love the fact that I was able to pull myself out of my funk and do some light exercises on my rest day. Sweet dreams loves! Here's to a better day tomorrow!
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#bringinghealthyback #bdd #bodydysmorphia #weightloss #weightlossstory #weightlossjourney #loveyourself #loveyourbody #happythoughts #bodydysmorphiaawareness #supportoneanother

Tea was 1 Filled Full Garlic Cream Cheese & Red Onion stuffed flat mushroom 114cals. I never figured out if I liked mushrooms or not so when I saw this I thought I'd give it a try as it seems really nice. How wrong was I. Only managed to eat the cheese and garlic off of it. Couldn't stand the texture, taste smell and look of it after I bitten into it. Wasted calories and unknown calories eaten now as I couldn't eat it all. 😤i felt no longer sick and like I had eaten enough but knew deep down that it wasn't so I went back and made something else which I'll post next. Really wasn't gonna restrict after the awful day I've had. BPD, anxiety and voices have been super overwhelming today. Then all that triggers my ED. I went shopping, accidentally went near the sweets isle, smelt how good they were and nervously packaged some into a cup just to then walk out the store without it as I freaked out and kept questioning myself "do you really need all that? What's the point? What good will it being just for a moments pleasure but a longer suffering of being fat and gross?" Felt so embarrassed as the staff were looking at me and I could tell they thought I wernt "all there". After a couple of hours, I decided I was going to get tea from one of my favourite Chinese cafes but they were out of my order as I arrived right before closing. 😭instead of walking all the way home like I usually do (3miles over an hour) I decided to just get the busy and respect my body's wishes as I was so tired and run down. Just wanted to get inside asap and hide from the world. Everything felt like too much today. #mentalillness #depression #anxiety #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderecovery #bodydysmorphic #bodydysmorphicdisorder #bodydysmorphia #foodblog #mushrooms #giantmushroom #filledfullof #flatmushroom

I didn't get to go to the training course today as I was so tired from not getting to sleep until 6.30am :( but it would of been my 6th time and that's longer than I was able to do last year. Will have to wait until the 11th of August now though as I'm away next week. I was absolutely starving whilst trying to sleep, maybe that was why I couldn't drift off aswell as my mind being busy. Don't think I'm gonna use the gym now as I can't handle that feeling of hunger when I'm not used to it anymore. Will just stick to my usual walking. I couldn't wait for breakfast, I had my favourite, Harvest Morn Chocolate Crisp cereal 139cals per 30g. #mentalillness #depression #anxiety #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderecovery #bodydysmorphic #bodydysmorphicdisorder #bodydysmorphia #foodblog #cereal #breakfast #chocolate #chocolatecereal #harvestmorn #chocolatecrisp

Yesterday i went to hot yoga (aka my favorite place in the world) and god i love this place. It's a safe Space where i never feel judge and even though the practice can be hard or exhausting, i always get out of there so calm, less anxious, and happy. At the begining and the end of the practice, she makes us lay down on our back (shavasana pose), close our eyes and breath. And sometimes, she start talking, sometimes not.
But yesterday she did.
And i loved what she said.
She told us to remind ourselves everything our body can do. How amazing the human body is. It allows us to walk, jump, run, eat, drink, interact with others, exercice, everything! How cool is that!
And she told us how important it was to be grateful for that. We spend way to much time critizing ourselves because of what our body can non do, or how it is not looking, and how it "should" be looking. But what about starting to focus on how it is now and accepting it? How about focusing on everything it can do instead of what it cannot? I mean, our body is pretty awesome and we tend to forget that our body is much more than just a shape.
It made me think.
I'm grateful for everything I have now.
You should try it. I'm not asking you to completely love yourself and accept your look (even though toi should héhé). it's the opposite that i want you to try. Stop thinking about your shape, and think about what your body is allowing you to do. Maybe it will change your perspective on some things, maybe not, but at least give it a try. You have nothing to loose;) Let me know what are you grateful for about your body 👇
And on that note, i wish you all a beautiful day 😊❤

I’m glad we’ve settled on the consensus that diet talk is the one of the most maddeningly insipid cultural practices in world, but there’s still a question left to answer: how do we handle this fuckery? How do we navigate the battlefield of conversational triggers co-workers fling across our desks? When a family member makes a fatphobic statement at Thanksgiving dinner that makes our eyes blur white with rage, what course of action are we supposed to take? As much as I want to endorse smashing plates against the wall or cross-hooking an infuriating boss square in the face, I appreciate that these tactics are probably impractical for most. But even the milder approach of a well-crafted response can get sticky – especially when things like paychecks, promotions, professional relationships, and familial connections are on the line. The reality is that many fatphobic exchanges get thrown around in situations where it’s not safe to speak up – situations where there may be severe consequences (social risks, financial risks, maybe even physical risks) for challenging other voices in the room. I’ve been chewing on this a lot over the past few days – going back and forth over the extent to which silence in these situations is an act of complicity – and here’s what I’ve come up with: speaking truth to power does not always mean being the loudest voice in the room. Speaking truth to power does not always necessitate using your voice at all. There are ways to remain silent and stay radical – disengaging from these conversations and opting out of toxic chit chat are arguably forms of noiseless protest in and of themselves. The power of dominant narratives and entrenched cultural norms only wins to the extent that they make YOU feel DISEMPOWERED. Reserving your voice for when it can best be heard and most openly received is still an act of strength. I recognize this one is tough, as the role of silence in activism is a prism of nuances and caveats and circumstances to consider. What do you guys think? Would love to hear your thoughts.

If we're being honest, I'm in complete denial about this being my body. The multiple before and afters this week are a byproduct of my mind messing with me. The mental game that comes along with this journey is a STRUGGLE, don't let anyone tell you differently.

FREE YO’ MIIIIIIND!!!!!!! I’ll wait while you finish the line, the song, and wrap up the sweet dance moves...no? You didn’t? Huh. Just me then! Lol

My MINDSET & MUSCLE challenge group is just about full and this is your LAST CALL to begin with us Monday. And here’s why you should join: 👉🏻My challengers get results, both physically and mentally.
👉🏻I giveaway prizes every week.
👉🏻I share a 30 page recipe file in addition to a new dessert file, marinade file, salad dressing file. Don’t make me Bubba Gump Shrimp you here. You get the drift. 👉🏻I show up for you EVERY SINGLE DAY! 👉🏻I teach you how to meal plan and will write one with you!
👉🏻I hold you accountable and remind you of your goals, even on the tough days.
👉🏻I won’t quit on you, even when you want to quit on yourself.
👉🏻I give you ALL THE TOOLS you need to transform your mind and body. 👉🏻We are a fit family that loves, supports, and empowers one another through ups and downs.
👉🏻The focus is on progress NOT perfection.

I have 3 SPOTS LEFT. You ready to take the first step towards a happier, healthier you?

Good morning. 80.2 kilos. Friday, but we're not out of the woods yet. Gonna do my best today and hope I see the top of the hill soon. Everybody have a great Friday and be nice. #japan #yokohama #kozukue #weightloss #everyday #exercise #eathealthy #bodydysmorphia #lookinggood #feelinggood #dontquit #gogogo #neverquit #あきらめへん #friday #tgif

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An older guy just picked me up in his truck and bought me a pack of cigarettes because I was wearing a tight dress with makeup. He whistled as I walked by completely oblivious to my age and eating disorder status. It was nice, he played classic rock and treated me as if I was the only thing that mattered. The world stopped for a while and my head spun from the nicotine. I gave him my number.
109.4 lbs, still no laxatives but my stomach looked kinda flat. I guess it's from working out a lot. Going back to the gym tonight and gonna kill it so I can lose more.
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