Over the last month and a half, I find I’m drowning in negative self doubt, feelings of jealousy, and mostly anger. I am quick to judge and get upset. Quick to cry. Laughing and happiness are feelings that are not felt nearly enough. I understand it sounds like I’m describing depression... I’m not quite there, yet. ••••
BUT the best part is, I know what I need to do. I know my mind is set on the wrong setting and I need to flip the switch to bring back balance. I know with time, energy, prayer and meditation I will overcome this. Life is about the ups and downs. It’s learning from all experiences, the old and the new. ••••
Keeping true to my yoga practice and daily meditation. Connecting and talking with God relieves the enormous pressure I feel daily. This isn’t mine to carry alone. ••••
Why am I sharing this very personal information with you? I have found writing is a release for me. And social media is a platform for me to share and put myself out there, when I wouldn’t normally. I never imagined being this open with my true self on social media but it is liberating. (Oddly, when my posts are mentioned in person I retreat back into my protective shell.) As I have stated in previous posts, the more honest and raw we are, the better people we become.
To end my soap box monologue, my new mental shift is to focus on all that I’m thankful for. To see the good in myself and others. To focus on bringing the person I am suppose to be back out of hiding. I will be back and it’ll be sooner than I expect. And I will be even better than before. I still have aspirations to share yoga but need to focus on healing myself before I can help others. ••••
Love and light.
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