I'm just so tired. When I can sleep it's nightmares and flashbacks. I'm so sick to my stomach, everything's aching and honestly I just want to take enough pills to where I don't feel anymore. I hate myself so much, I hate snapping st people who only try to help. I hate feeling so shitty that I can help people who need it more than I do. I'm such a selfish worthless asshole, who needs to get the fuck over himself. I'm sorry everyone, but I'm going to go away for a little while.