#blip

MOST RECENT

; please? since tuesday, everything's been so messed up. it feels as tho i slipped backwards by like a year overnight, and now i'm struggling with EVERYTHING - eating, drinking, walking, pacing, self-harm, portioning, completing. literally e v e r y t h i n g. it's one step forward, a hundred back. i'm so scared the eating disorder has taken over and is controlling everything, and my ability to stand up to it has seemingly disappeared. it's like battles i have already fought a hundred times over have returned with a million times more vengeance, hellbent on destroying me, and i just don't have the strength to do anything but listen and comply with its demands. it's so completely in control. like i'm even back to being too scared to take certain prescribed medications for fear of their calorie content - because fuck what my body needs when my ed is in control, hey! i am so fucked. it's spiralling every day, and it's taking everything i have trying to keep it static, and not let it get worse - and where i am now is nowhere near where i should be. genuinely fucking terrified. i need help, yet every time i reach out i am simply told i need to get back on track, because even within an edu, struggling is only permitted if you are thin. the fat kid is having a blip? sort your fucking life out already, YOU ARE SINGLEHANDEDLY MAKING IT HARDER FOR EVERYONE ELSE; it'd be better if you weren't here - whether that referred to the table or the unit as a whole, i have no idea. either way, i obvs do not deserve support. if i can't fix myself, i'm just the failure i always have been.
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"monsters are real...they live inside of us, and sometimes, they win." ☠
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[Image credit; @theofficialsadghostclub 💕]
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#struggling #personal #mylife #anorexia #anorexianervosa #blip #feelslikemorethanjustablip #relapse #outofcontrol #eatingdisorder #iwishicouldgobackwards #spirallingoutofcontrol #fuckweightrestoration #seeingmyweighthasruinedeverything #fat #fataf #bodyimagestruggles #youdeservetostruggle #fivehundredstepsbackwards #happenedwaytoofast #scared #dontwannadestroytheprogessivemade #yetalreadyitseemstoolateforthat

What is Professor Schnitzel’s Schnozzle made out of?! I need a protractor. #schnoz #beak #naptime #boopmynose #blip

あー楽しい1日でした😍❤️
カバー曲の振り付け面白かった‼️‼️‼️‼️
またひとついい経験と反省点…
でも前回よりもっと楽しく踊れました‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️
1回1回楽しさが増す藍ちゃんイベント🎶
藍ちゃんファンのみなさんがほんと暖かく応援してくれていて
素敵なステージだったなーと今回も思います😍🙌
是非是非1度藍ちゃんステージ見に来てくださいね😍🙌
もぅすぐ藍ちゃんの新曲でるようで😍🙌
みなさんも是非一度藍ちゃんの癒しボイス聞いてください👍🏻💓
バックで踊らせてもらえることを毎回感謝しつつ
これでも三十路ババァ全力で挑んでおりまっす🤣🙌
これからも#Blip 応援よろしくお願いしまーーーーーす‼️ #藍ちゃん前髪きって可愛さ倍増❤️ 今回特別に#KRD さんの #姫恋月華 #たのしかった😍
#自分振り付けといて間違える事件
#ここだけの話ってことで🤣💦笑

#このあと足つってました
#やっぱり体は三十路
#気持ちじゃカバーできない現実😑
#でも突っ走りますww

#毎回来てくれるショージさんに感謝😍
#頑張れるーーーー

#夜勤明け
#寝てないけどそれがなんだw
#数日前からの胃痛
#タール便
#超絶の体調不良 かーらーの復活👍🏻
#昨日から食欲でました💓

#美味しい 晩御飯
#IBFダイニング
#kobaさん誕生日おめでとー
#きっと今日の 記憶はkobaさんないでしょぅw笑
#ご馳走様でした❤️ #明日も
#はっぴー藍らんど
#シンガーソングライター藍
#バックダンサー
#姫路
#イベント

I keep having blips 🙈 one step forward and two steps back and all that malarkey. Can't seem to stay consistent. Life has been pretty busy recently and I'm struggling with the food. Therefore I've decided to start the couch to 5k again (how many times can I restart? Hard to believe I ran a half marathon just 2 years ago. Anyway... day one complete and didn't struggle like I thought I would! 🙌😁 How long can I keep this up? #myjourney #truelife #blip #couchto5k #halfmarathon #weightlossjourney #loosingweight

"what is a weekend"?
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#boxers #boxermom #happiness #tongue #blip #mustlovedogs #woof
#weekend

Simply don't know WHAT I'd do without my personal news correspondent back in the UK, at times like these... 🤣#updatesfromhome #blip-dates #royalwedding #takemehome #harryandmeghan #seriousfomo #tangibleexcitement #britabroad #cupfinal #somethingforeveryone #thisisengland ❤️🇬🇧❤️👰🏻🤴🏼❤️🇬🇧❤️

BUT YOU KNOW DAT!! #flyermann #blip #shotbyblip #jetlife4life #jetlife 🛫🛫🛫

testing out #blip magnifying lenses on the #iphone8plus #Suiko #synth #strymon

@bossman_jd x Transportin Remix #GasForTheStreets ⛽️🌍 Hosted By: @officialdjmayday and @deon_era1 🙌🏾 #may28 #FnfEnt #FlexNFiness #Blip ‼️WE GOING VIRAL‼️ #MemorialDay 🇺🇸

@bossman_jd x Transportin Remix #GasForTheStreets ⛽️🌍 Hosted By: @officialdjmayday and @deon_era1 🙌🏾 #may28 #FnfEnt #FlexNFiness #Blip ‼️WE GOING VIRAL‼️ #MemorialDay 🇺🇸

This was another picture from my car meet/grad party and I still can’t believe this many people came out
#ringlandfailure#boost#wrx#sti
#blip#carmeets#kansascity
#westbottoms#subiegang
#subie#brothers#home
#awd

@officialdjmayday ain’t playin 🤔 FOLLOW NOW #RP 🗣 Everybody Changing on Meeee YALL SHOULD SEE MY FACE 😂 S/O to @rodwave x Changin On Me #GasForTheStreets ⛽️ Hosted By: @officialdjmayday and @deon_era1 I KNOW THEY FEELING THIS ONE 🔥🔥🌎🌍 #FlexNFiness #Blip #FnfEnt #RookiesOfTheYear STAY TUNED #MOVIE

🗣 Everybody Changing on Meeee YALL SHOULD SEE MY FACE 😂 S/O to @rodwave x Changin On Me #GasForTheStreets ⛽️ Hosted By: @officialdjmayday and @deon_era1 I KNOW THEY FEELING THIS ONE 🔥🔥🌎🌍 #FlexNFiness #Blip #FnfEnt #RookiesOfTheYear STAY TUNED #MOVIE

Full interview dropping at 2:00 😂😂😂😂 just wait#lol#lmao#jtfo#bars#comedy#standup#blip#jetlife#tbt#family#queen#king#royal#wedding#marriage

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