I am a little bit tired today since I was up last night crying over Dan and Phil’s honesty in their new video???? I relate to so many of their fears and it’s like they’ve stripped away another layer and gone dEEPER✨
It does make me feel less alone when people I look up to talk openly about their struggles!
The “do you ever feel like you don’t have a personality?” bit hit me so hard because I feel like that all the time! I like to seem like that quirky and (hopefully) funny person and all that, but how much of that is me masking and how much is real? Even though I can have so much fun with close friends, I’m always afraid that I can’t fully let go of the “performance”!!
I hide behind jokes and looking everywhere but at the person I am talking to, I use phrases I hear often, I spend a lot of time in my head planning out my next appropriate response. Is this me?
It’s like I am being 100% myself and really removed at the same time and I can’t even begin to explain it. That’s the downside of masking for so so long: I don’t know how to turn it off (or if I have????)🌚 my greatest fear is to find that there’s nothing at all underneath everything. Or maybe it’s that I might never find out.
I can’t possibly be alone in this, right? Well apart from Dan😭 do you have any tips on how to let go of the mask? Or maybe you haven’t yet?