#TBT to when I was A) Lean B) prepping for my first and only comp C) blonde D) August 2014.
As I wake for morning cardio I reflect on the last 4 years and how far I have come. I knew not a whole lot back then, about myself, about what it takes, about loving myself and not taking this life for granted. I certainly wasnt full of self love. I entered into a toxic relationship that saw me hit rock bottom I couldnt look at these photos that I once was so proud of, for some time because I was degraded and abused over them. But today.... to get where I am not only physically but mentally and emotionally, I have worked harder than any prep for a comp to find myself and fall in love.
Like a comp, like recovery from trauma, picking yourself up in hard times it all takes time. I started my journey of self love 18 months ago not even day by day. I started it minute by minute, then hour by hour. It took time, it took determination, it took falling... hard, over and over and over again.
Good things dont happen overnight! And once you have what you desire you cant stop working at it like you will be lean always, like you will be happy always, you gotta keep on working! There is no short cut for a great physique, there is no short cut for finding happy and self love, I have to wake up at 5am to lean up and if Im serious I will diet as well. I have to practice meditation and gratitude all the time to keep me grounded, I have to work at it.... I have moments I hate it. I have moments I am mean to myself. But they are moments.... not days.
Dont give up... ever! Find something that makes you smile every day. Stop beating yourself up for what you havnt done and start loving you for what you have done. Dont let toxic shit heads hold you back, know your worth and stand for yourself. The attitude of gratitude, mindset, learn, fall, grow 🙏 #betterthanyesterday #lovethelifeyoulive #motivation #swole #shelifts #girlswholift #throwbackthursday #fitfamperth #shekiwibro #zerofucksgiven #aloneze #loveyourself #gym #beast #bekind #noidontcompete #meagainstme #grind #attentionseeking #inspire #motivate #youloveit #beastmode #lifestyle #fitness #nutrition #girlswithmuscle #poppet