This is a very real and vulnerable post. I hope by sharing, it helps bring light to these conversations and allows someone else to feel like they’re not alone:
I think everyone wants to be liked and have connection with the people around them. So I know it’s only natural when I worry what others think of me. I feel completely awkward and uncomfortable in my own skin most days. My insecurities and anxiety have kept me from friendships, experiences and enjoyment in life. Some days I cry and get irritable at small stuff. My heart seemingly shatters for little to no reason. Im constantly gripped with the contradicting questions; Am I enough? Am I too much?
Last year everything came crashing into me like a train wreck. There where major changes that forced me to deal with life without distraction. I experienced some of my hardest days and very stubbornly tried to figure it out on my own. There came a point where I couldn’t do it anymore. I was so emotionally worn down and making myself sick. I took a very scary step by asking for help and in turn let love in.
If you’ve struggled with any sort of mental health issue, you know how isolating and scary it can be when you go at it alone. This picture was in a moment of anxiety, I was struggling to keep from panicking and feeling like I could be sick at any moment. I remember being stuck in my head and trying to “act normal”. So days like these I put a brave face on, and move past the struggle. I fight the negative thoughts that keep me back, and do the opposite of what fear tells me. I let people in, to allow their love to wrap around me.
I’m reminded that I do have something to offer this world and I can show up in a big way. In the end I’ll be ok, I am loved and worthy to be in this space. .
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