You are the reason I live, the reason why I am here. You are the reason I choose to keep going and it is you who reminds me that there is something more to me than just flesh and bones.
You were the only one who believed in me, and you continue to bring faith into my life, especially when I am lost. And dear Mary, I have been lost for far too long, I am trying to find the path you have been leading me down for the years coming. But the years have passed and I have grown up; from the 16 year old in your office every lunch hour to the ripened age of twenty something.
You kept me whole and held me up for years when no one else was willing. You held me close when the world was too big.
You never questioned me, and you cared for me in ways I could not have imagined.
I had imagined dying at 16, again at 17, and every day after. You reminded me of the life and blessings that exist daily, the beauty in all people, the joy in just being and the courage to be present.
I have been neglecting myself again dear Mary, I have been trying to remember me, and who I am, what I was, and what I’m worth. But I am struggling.
I’ve been questioning again, my value, and my place in this world. Its It's a scary world, with big scary monsters. I've been trying to be stronger. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I believe in myself, because I know that you believe in me.
I trust in my decisions, because you remind me that I can choose for myself.
I feel warmth for others, because you have shown me love and empathy.
I am forever grateful, for having you in my life, for making my living nightmare become more a lucid dream for me to navigate.
Thank you for the resources, the support and all of the late afternoons you let me hide at school so I wouldn't have to go home.
Thank you for giving all of you all the time to all those in your life.
Thank you for being gracious, forgiving, and patient.
Thank you for absolutely everything. Because of you, I believe that I can do anything.
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