Life is this amazing process where we give things, people, circumstances, events and days meaning. We try to make sense of everything happening around us. Some of us put our faith in something - we mostly belief in some Force bigger than us. It is an amazing yet complex process, our thoughts processes. I have been talking about observing more often and quieting our minds to hear the silence. It sounds very poetic, but that is the art of observation: it is the ability of being quiet by letting all thoughts drift. It is the process of being aware but allowing things to play out. It is the art of letting go of control so we can truly gain control.
I was meditating last night and my mind was buzzing like a bee. I kept trying to control the thoughts. I tried to take control of my mind by telling it to shut up. I wanted blank. I wanted peace. And for some reason I couldn't get to that point - I was thinking and fighting my own thoughts.
This continued to happen for the next 5 minutes (at least it felt like that). There was a moment where I just shut down. A realization hit me. As I was trying to quiet my thoughts so I could experience some feeling, I realized that I was the one talking. It got to a point in where I started smiling at my thoughts. A sudden deep awareness sunk in that everything I so deeply wanted is already here. It became a matter of tuning into it. And so, I started to consciously tune into the feelings I wanted… I realized that I was the one creating those voices. The voices suddenly changed into One Voice, My Voice. I started to give thanks for as much as I could. There is a lot to be thankful for! And then one great truth bomb hit me: you can't observe when you think. Observations cease to be observations the moment we give them meaning. The moment we give some people, events, circumstances or things meaning, they lose their objectivity. Life is very much observable. Observations are objective. At the same time, Life is very much meaningful. Meanings differ per person. Proper observations create awareness. Awareness brings insight. Insight is already subjective.