This is something that is really frustrating to me. So many people think they can make assumptions about your health based on being with you for minutes to possibly hours in a day. I'm 100% positive that anyone who saw me out on a given day would never guess that I have a chronic illness and that I haven't been in remission for years. Why? For a few reasons.. because I only go out when I'm able. You're only seeing me when I'm not strapped to a bed or toilet... Because I starved myself for hours to a full day previous to said going out.. Because I have a full face of makeup on or a nice outfit most likely.. but also because I try really hard not to show that I'm sick. Contrary to how open I am on this Instagram.. I am not this way in real life. I barely talk to anyone about my symptoms, I downplay my symptoms the majority of the time, and I'm not comfortable talking about all the embarrassing Crohn’s details to very many people, at all. My mom may be the only one really.. but even to her, I don't show how I really feel most days. I've dated my boyfriend two years, and I'm only just recently getting really comfortable enough to share all the realities of my disease. This isn't a fault of his. It's just how I am. I'm a closed off person and I've spent most of my life trying to appear a certain way. Appear tough, independent, like I can handle anything. Of course this leads to people never really knowing how you truly feel. Because if everyone went strictly off of how I look, like I said, no one would know I'm sick. I think I need to work on being more open and vocal about how I'm feeling and asking for help when I really need it instead of trying to power through on my own. But I also wish everyone would realize that an invisibile illness is just that... invisible and how I look is not indicative of how I feel.