Third day with the drum set, first video
Havent played drums since i was like 20, and i didnt play much as it was. Only when our drummers werent on the throne, a maximum of ten hours total (i only played in a few non gigging bands). Whereas on the other hand ive logged hundreds if not thousands of hours on guitar. So gimme a few hundred hours and ill be ripping through this set like a fuxking chainsaw 💪💪💪 Im an expert at air drumming though, and have most of my visualization practiced through this method.
One reason i like to play is simply because it makes me happy, temporarily eleviating my brutal depression.
I remember in my late teens playing air drums to all manner of songs, in the late evenings, in the dark, alone, headphones on. I was in my own universe, where positivity was at the core. It sounds weird, but its all i had since i was a poor, depressed, angry-on-the-outside sweet-on-the-inside drug-addicted while being somewhat sheltered suburban kid. It was everything from scandi death metal and grindcore to LA skatepunk and hiphop, classic rock, post-emo indie and everything inbetween. If it has a beat ill play, unless its sad or country or both.
I would try to make every hit just right, playing the song or part over until I could understand it. It was a strange way to accomplish the goal, but the only way I knew how. It helped give me some control over my life, and ive noticed over the years that as i stray away from music, the darker things become for me. And not darker like, "hey this is good inspiration for art", but more like unrelentless self-loathing and extreme disgust for pretty much everything. Its bad. Im fine now (thanks to boo, @vintersolwintersun ) , but i have a history of self-destructive behavior and suicidal thoughts, so its a big deal (difficult to achieve) for me to find life worth living.
So, im very glad to say that ive solved an issue that i didnt know i had for over a decade; no drums. Guitars and synths are great, i love them.. But theyre not drums, and sequencers cannot do what i need. The warrior spirit in me feels complete; i finally have an outlet that can absorb my thunder 🙏🌌💪🔥💖🥁