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A few reminders I really needed today:
Recovery doesn't have much to do with winning.
It's about taking pride in that fact you even w a n t to pursue recovery. You must be proud of each moment you want better for yourself.
Be proud of refusing to listen to every negative thought that comes along:
• When we begin picking our bodies apart, we say "no, I can and will love my body today"
• When we are tempted to restrict in any way, we know that it won't serve us like we think it will
• When we feel the need to use food in comforting ways, we can tell ourselves that we DO understand the craving, but we don't need to use food to numb anymore
Recovery is also about always forgiving yourself if you DO engage in your behaviors. It will take a long time and so much patience to work through it all. How awesome is it that we're even trying!?
Think about that the next time you're being way too hard on yourself.

When I inevitably start to think that my body doesn't look good enough, I remember how little being thin and frail actually served me.
Being a lifeless, miserable, self-loathing, starving version of myself did nothing but make me feel like I needed to become even smaller. Wanting to disappear became the addiction.
Now, I want to sit proudly in my body. Feel alive and nourish my body the way it's begged me to for years.
The insecure thoughts will come. But we don't have to welcome them with open arms.
We can smile and say "I acknowledge that you exist, but I can't listen to you today." I want to be healthy. Once I figured out a way to sustain a healthy mind, this healthy body followed.✨
I didn't look better then, and I don't look better now. My life's fulfillment has n o t h i n g to do with the way I look.
My self-value has never truly come from my physicality and never should have.
💭 I've finally learned that.
And what matters most is that I feel happier and healthier. Mind, body and soul. I fell away from my need to stay small and control everything about the way I ate, trained, and looked. I started to ask myself about what I really want out of life. I just wanted to start living, breathing and experiencing things.
💕you don't have to suffer
💓you won't be stuck forever
and you're on your way to finding freedom with your body. Be gentle with yourself and remember that all you really care about is the i n n e r you. #beautyisnotgeneric #transformation #fitgirl #fitness #everybodyisbeautiful #bopo #edrecovery #bodypositive #motivation #fitness #bellylove #prorecovery #realrecovery #everybodyisbeautiful #inspiration #cellulite #edfree #mentalhealth #bedrecovery #selfconfidence #edwarrior #edsoldier #curves #curvy #aerie
#edrecovery #selfiesforselflove #fit #embracethesquish #selflove
#bodypositivity #effyourbeautystandards
#portrait

Do you hoard food?
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A lot of people do...
I'm one of them.
Don't get me wrong I'm much better about this than I used to be...but it's definitely a habit of mine
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Growing up we didn't have much money the majority of the time. We had to have help. We used food stamps and even got free food from food banks on Sundays.
I am not ashamed of this whatsoever.
You do what you have to do
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I even remember times when we'd go through the whole process of filling our grocery cart and then have to leave it behind at the cash register because our card had been declined.
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My mom was a single mother & she was working her ass off and doing her very best..and I love her so much for that.
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I do believe this impacted my relationship with food though.
We never had a ton of it around, and having two older brothers made it even worse. There were many times when I had to hide food to make sure my brothers didn't demolish it. .
We'd go grocery shopping and within a day or two it would seem to be almost gone...
This is where my hoarding comes in.
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Now when I find a food I like I feel it's necessary to by 5 bags instead of one. My cupboards are overflowing with food. It's like this ingrained fear I have of running out of food. This also explains part of why I eventually started binge-eating. I always had this fear of not having enough. Food scarcity.
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Is this something you've ever experienced? Share your story!
#lovemymiddle

199/365 | #thisisrecovery365
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I am home from treatment.
And today I needed a reminder of where I'm at on this obscenity-filled yellow brick road that runs from sick to recovered and all of the many, many places in between.
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I needed a reminder to keep fighting.
To keep pushing forward.
To keep seeing that sliver-sized glimmer of fucking hope at the end that I couldn't see a month ago, or even 2 weeks ago.
To keep resting, marching, resting, marching.
Then resting again.
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I've come so far. And some of it lately, yeah, I've had to do on my own. Like, without even you guys along for the ride. Which has sucked so massively, but had to be done.
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I'm blown away by all the tags, messages, comments during this time. I'm literally blown away that so many people truly, actually, genuinely give a shit. After running this account, with this particular content, for just over a year- I'm STILL blown away. And it'll never be any other way. You amaze me. Every last one of you.
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So I'm getting up, gearing up & suiting up daily so that I can hopefully keep amazing some of you, too- amazing you enough to keep you marching on your own journey. Because you can.
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I'm Amanda Gist. And on a scale of in recovery to recovered, I'm still the one with the y.
#realrecovery
#healthoverhollywood

PS if you're tagged, just...thank you. If you're not tagged it's not because I don't love you it's because I ran out of tags. ❤️

Guys last night I did something that the old me would NEVER have done. I went to my neighbors house by myself with people I had NEVER met, in a bathing suit, and did something I have never done before, water aerobics. And want to know the best part? I had so much FUN!
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The old me would have had a hard time getting out of routine, interacting with people she didn't really know, doing something new. She would have WISHED she could be more "free spirited" but she wouldn't have done anything to change it.
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When I joined on as a coach, it seemed perfect because I got to interact with most people online and truth be told, I'm a total introvert. But I didn't realize the change that would come over me. I didn't realize that reading all these personal development books, and working on myself so much, mentally and physically, would cause such a drastic change in me! The confidence I got through working on my body and my mind has truly changed my life.
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This week I challenged myself, and LOVED it, with water aerobics, what should I do next week?? #newfoundconfidence #byebyeoldme #wateraerobics

It can't be a fear food if you have never tried it. Also these were delicious and flower flavored foods need to make it over here! .
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#anarecovery #miarecovery #bedrecovery #ednosrecovery #edrecovery

If feel like you're either 'really good' 👍 or 'really bad' 👎, you often think "I've ruined it now, I may as well start again on Monday!" or feel demotivated when the scales don't give you the number you wanted, then today's blog post is perfect for you. ❤️😘Click on the link in my profile or visit www.lyndicohen.com/blog to find out how to get out of 'all-or-nothing' thinking. 🙌 P.s. Photo from my husbands birthday party.

Beautiful looking bath bombs💣 by @lifearound2angels 💖🛁 This time I had Kiwi & Strawberry 🍓 Lucky Fin approves👍🏻

What does perfectionism protect us from? More importantly, what is the cost of that drive for perfection?
For a lot of us we either procrastinate too much or we flip the fuck out because we don't think we can handle the uncomfortable feelings when things don't go the way we think they should. Is that really a true sense of control?
1. Eliminate "should" from your vocabulary.
2. Repeat after me "I'm ok. I can handle any emotion. Half of my emotions are going to feel uncomfortable. Emotions won't kill me."
3. Ok, now I know what doesn't work for me right now. What can I do differently that will serve me?
✅Example, just because BBG is written out to do 3x a week doesn't mean you HAVE to. I'm still too sore from Week 8 legs on Monday to do practically anything. If I have to pee one more time today I'm going to cry!! 🚼
So what? Maybe 3x a week isn't reasonable right now, after taking a month off to heal I'm out of shape and will need more time to recover. NOTHING in my life will change if I don't reach my 12 week (now 16 week) goal. I have a job where I don't need to be hot or have a lean body but I DO have a job where I need to take care of myself.
My relationships will not be affected if I don't complete my workout plan perfectly, but they will be if I think I'm a failure for not being a perfect athlete... See what I'm sayin... be flexible and compassionate with yourself. Perfection does not exist and does not actually promise an easy, breezy, stress free life. It usually creates MORE anxiety and stress. Create space for flexibility and "enough" by changing the way you think.
💠I'm enough. I'm doing the best I can. I'm good enough.💠

MOST RECENT

This is so unattractive but so delicious. (And if that isn't a metaphor for life, what is?!) Slow cooker vegetable korma reheated with leftover poached chicken breast in ghee. I don't remember where I got the recipe but I'm pretty sure I just googled 'whole30 crock pot' or something similar. It has potatoes, carrots, green beans, shallot, garam masala, curry and coconut milk. And bone broth. And I think that's it.

I can feel myself slowly shrinking back to that girl I used to Be, to the girl I am deep down inside. To the confident, outgoing girl who LOVES running round with her Air Scouts and Beaver Scouts. Thanks again cambridge weight plan ❤❤❤
#happydays #happylife #positivevibes #positiveenergy #goodvibes #goodenergy #hippievibes #hippielife #happy #hippie #happyhippie #goodkarma #weightloss #hardwork #hardworkpaysoff #dedication #motivation #bodypositivity #bodyconfidence #confidence #girlpower #betteringmyself
#bingeeating #bingeeatingdisorder #bingerecovery #bedrecovery #battlingbed #hardworkpaysoff #positivethoughts #lovingmyself #lovinglife

Thank you cambridge weight plan for giving me my confidence back ❤ I've just took part in a big waterfight with my Beaver Scouts and ran, laughed & didn't think about how I looked once! I enjoyed myself as a leader should 😊
#happydays #happylife #positivevibes #positiveenergy #goodvibes #goodenergy #hippievibes #hippielife #happy #hippie #happyhippie #goodkarma #weightloss #hardwork #hardworkpaysoff #dedication #motivation #bodypositivity #bodyconfidence #confidence #girlpower #betteringmyself
#bingeeating #bingeeatingdisorder #bingerecovery #bedrecovery #battlingbed #hardworkpaysoff #positivethoughts #lovingmyself #lovinglife

I can feel myself slowly shrinking back to that girl I used to Be, to the girl I am deep down inside. To the confident, outgoing girl who LOVES running round with her Air Scouts and Beaver Scouts. Thanks again @cambridgeweightplan ❤❤❤
#healthkick #healthy #healthyfood #healthyeating #weightloss #fitness #diet #motivation #health #cambridgeweightplan #cwp #cwpfood #cwpmotivation  #cwpgirls #cwpsoldiers #cwpwarriors #timeforchange #gym #fitness #selfimprovement #cwpcrew #cwpfamily #cwpcommunity #bingeeatingdisorder #bingerecovery #bedrecovery #battlingbed #hardworkpaysoff #positivethoughts #lovingmyself

Hot chocolate! ☕ Sooo I was looking through my old recovery insta (recover_lilly) from last year & some of the posts shocked me.. I completely forgot how bad it was then and what a bad place I was in😓 I'm so thankful that my mindset has changed and that I've gotten better since then!

I'm still unwell, but improvement has been made since then & I hope things only get better this Summer ❤ I feel this Summer is the one 😂😁 #edrecovery #recovery #eatingdisorder #edwarrior #edfighter #prorecovery #edfam #edlife #edrecoveryarmy #eatittobeatit #bulimiarecovery #anorexiarecovery #bingeeatingdisorderrecovery #bedrecovery #miarecovery #anarecovery #bodydismorphia

R1D6: ever since the morning of the second day I wake up with no appetite. I can usually eat about 2-3 hrs after waking, subsisting on coffee + almond milk until then. This morning I tried something new. Smoothie bowl (not new) made better with the addition of MCT oil and Vital Proteins Collagen Peptides. I've been reading about and seeing the collagen here for ages and finally got my hands on some. (I call these things #instagrammademedoit 😄)
Also in the bowl: bananas cherries spinach kale and coconut water.

✨Laundry day meal!💁🏻✨I love going to @granbyvillagehealthct when I'm in town. Have a large Green Monster smoothie with a @gomacro bar 😋 Also took a wellness shot at the counter. •Wheatgrass •Garlic •Ginger💖

We're both having watermelon after lunch! 🍉 I had taco meat with cheese & sour cream before this. 😋

If you want change

If you want to be your best self

Then you need to accept yourself

You don't have to love yourself.

You don't even have to like yourself.

Just accept yourself.

As you are NOW.

This doesn't mean you're​ complacent

This doesn't mean you've given up

Or that you're letting yourself go. .

Once you truly accept yourself and your​ life as it is CURRENTLY, wonderful things will occur. The goals you are striving to achieve won't seem so far off.

Life will get easier. .

Here's an example.
I had SEVERE cystic acne for years

I tried EVERYTHING to get rid of it

And it just seemed to get worse & worse .

Finally I just said "fuck it, I'm going to have acne, there's nothing I can do about it, I better just get used to it". I accepted my acne

I stopped staring at my face in the mirror

I stopped obsessing over it

I stopped picking at skin

I just STOPPED. .

Well as you can see from my photos.. I don't have acne anymore.

It just slowly, very slowly disappeared .

Of course in that time I did make some diet changes, and used a few products... Which DID help... But I was using all these products before too! .

Surrender control.

Accept.

And see miracles happen ❤️ .

#lovemymiddle .

Would you be interested in hearing about the products I used to treat my cystic acne in a blog post? Let me know!

I talked about binge eating disorder and my decision to eat DD for breakfast on my stories. 🥐 I chose to eat it, so that I could satisfy the craving and MOVE ON. ☺️ and it worked! I feel good about eating how I normally do for the rest of the day. 💁🏻 moral of the story - do what you know is best for you in the grand scheme of things. Pay attention to warning signs and do what works FOR YOU to avoid a binge. ✨💕 #BED #bingeeatingdisorder #workinprogress

🍿 What's everyone's favourite popcorn flavour?! 🍿 I like sweet and salty!
Just been to the gym and was ravenous so ate some popcorn which I requested for my Mum to get for the weekly shop!
I don't usually do this, but I weighed out the popcorn just because I had no idea what a rough serving was & I was pleasantly surprised how big it was! Sometimes I find its good to be mindful of how much a serving is when recovering from Bulimia just because I'm more aware of what I'm eating.
#edrecovery #recovery #eatingdisorder #edwarrior #edfighter #prorecovery #edfam #edlife #edrecoveryarmy #eatittobeatit #bulimiarecovery #anorexiarecovery #bingeeatingdisorderrecovery #bedrecovery #miarecovery #anarecovery #bodydismorphia

Aside from the fact that this photo makes me look like a freaking Amazon woman #ilookbiggerthanthecouch.... #
I stretch every. single. day. Coming up on 35 years old in a couple months.... this body is old. So I'm pretty fucking proud of the fact that last night when I dropped into the splits for the first time in years and I went all the way to the ground.... Now if only my brain could get on board and be as flexible as my body... #stretching #splits #flexibility #yoga #hipopenersfordays #bedrecovery #imatchmylivingroom #thattriceptho💪

Guys last night I did something that the old me would NEVER have done. I went to my neighbors house by myself with people I had NEVER met, in a bathing suit, and did something I have never done before, water aerobics. And want to know the best part? I had so much FUN!
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The old me would have had a hard time getting out of routine, interacting with people she didn't really know, doing something new. She would have WISHED she could be more "free spirited" but she wouldn't have done anything to change it.
.
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When I joined on as a coach, it seemed perfect because I got to interact with most people online and truth be told, I'm a total introvert. But I didn't realize the change that would come over me. I didn't realize that reading all these personal development books, and working on myself so much, mentally and physically, would cause such a drastic change in me! The confidence I got through working on my body and my mind has truly changed my life.
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This week I challenged myself, and LOVED it, with water aerobics, what should I do next week?? #newfoundconfidence #byebyeoldme #wateraerobics

I was only intending on going for a short walk but the time passes by so quickly 🏃‍♀️ going to be doing lots of running tonight at Beavers & Air Scouts as it is their annual water fights 😃
#healthkick #healthy #healthyfood #healthyeating #weightloss #fitness #diet #motivation #health #cambridgeweightplan #cwp #cwpfood #cwpmotivation  #cwpgirls #cwpsoldiers #cwpwarriors #timeforchange #gym #fitness #selfimprovement #cwpcrew #cwpfamily #cwpcommunity #bingeeatingdisorder #bingerecovery #bedrecovery #battlingbed #hardworkpaysoff #positivethoughts #lovingmyself

Journaling has played a major part in my #edrecovery 💜 I took a break from it & as my therapist used to say, no one coasts uphill. Journaling & self care have been on the back burner for me lately. Ironically, making more time for work and other "musts" has resulted in exhaustion & depression. I guess that saying about not being able to fill from an empty cup is true. I'm drained. #recoverydiscovery #bedrecovery #eatdisorderrecovery #bingeatingdisorder #recovery #journaling #recoveryjourney #himalayancatsofinstagram #journal #selfcare #sotired #lifescomforts

🚨 OAT TIME 🚨 and don't it look gooood 😎
> @traderjoes multigrain hot cereal + plums and 🍑
> also, gonna keep it real with you guys... I binged last night. After a bad phone call with my boyfriend and moving in a week I'm getting stressed which is no bueno for my eating. Today, though, I planned out all my meals and workout so I'm ready to conquer the day ☀️😝

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