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A volte serve solo piangere, piangere e dare nome e voce alle proprie paure, condividerle e farle più piccole, meno invincibili. Quando mia mamma è rientrata a casa dicendo che domani saremmo andati a mare con le nostre cugine, che avrebbero pranzato a casa da noi, che nel pomeriggio saremmo usciti e che avremmo cenato fuori, ho avuto una brutta crisi. Era troppo: paura di indossare un costume davanti a loro, paura di rimanere schiacciata dai continui confronti, a mare e a tavola, paura di commenti di qualsiasi natura, paura di dover dare spiegazioni o inventare scuse, paura della necessità di mangiare diversamente. Sono scoppiata a piangere, mi girava la testa e non riuscivo a calmare il respiro. È venuta mamma a salvarmi dai miei mostri: mentre cercavo le parole per spiegarle tutte le possibili combinazioni di eventi che mi avrebbero messa in difficoltà, seduta accanto a lei sul divano, ogni timore rimpiccioliva, come un'ombra sul muro quando aumenta la luce. Non posso dire che adesso sto bene (tra l'altro, a parte il forte mal di testa, sono anche raffreddata🤧): in realtà in questi giorni mi rendo conto di essere piuttosto triste, o nervosa, o arrabbiata, ma non riesco a capirne il motivo. E ci sto male, soprattutto perché lunedì vado via e non voglio trascorrere gli ultimi giorni qui a casa in questa condizione psicologica negativa, fatta unicamente di ansie, paure, angosce e chi più ne ha più ne metta. Ricordo quella bambina che si svegliava di notte, spaventata a causa dei brutti sogni: la mamma le lavava la faccia e la rimetteva a letto dopo averla tranquillizzata. Ora quella bambina ha 20 anni: è il momento di imparare a riconoscere anche da sola che gli incubi non sono realtà e che a dargli troppa consistenza non ci si sveglia più. [In foto la cena di stasera: insalatona 🥗 con lattuga, zucca 🎃, avocado 🥑 , ceci, crostini di pane 🥖, semini, olio evo, sale e crema tahin della @damiano_organic . Ovviamente zucca e pane in quantità rappresentative. Buonanotte✨]

So I’m fairly new to this whole Instagram blogging thing but I am so so shocked at how much thinspo and proana messages and pages that there are. It makes me so angry. Why would you ever chose this illness, I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy, constantly being tortured by a voice in your head and all the pain that comes with an eating disorder. The pain it causes your family and friends having to watch you wither away into nothingness. It’s not cool and it’s not a trend. It makes me Sad that people thrive to be like someone who is anorexic or bulimic or whatever they are suffering from. Encouraging each other to fast for days and to see more bones, it’s not right. It makes me mad and upset that my little sister is growing up in a world where people are encouraging mental illnesses. It’s not a competition for who can be the smallest because this illness just wants you dead, that’s not something to be proud of. I just don’t understant to be honest why anyone would choose the torment of an eating disorder. It’s not glamorous, it’s a killer. You wouldn’t glamorise cancer so why glamorise this? Sorry, rant over xx #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #edrecoveryquotes #anorexiawarrior #bingeeating #eatingdisorderawareness #anorexiawarriors #beatingeatingdisorders #depression #selfhate #broken #ananotwinning #recovery #recoveryisworthit #edwontwin #inspiration #bestrong #dontgiveup #talktome #prorecovery #selfharmawareness #selfharm #thinspo #againstproana #dontunderestimateyourself

my #dinner two weeks ago🌱💛 sweet potato chickpea curry with tandoori garlic naan🍠. Tbh this is my favorite dish rn😍 although there is coconut milk (bigg fear food) in it. It’s just too amazing to think about it. today i went to the gym and I think I am at the point where I am starting to love it again. I mean I always loved going to the gym but my ed ruined everything. so I kinda forced myself to the gym. Now I am going bc I love it and I want to😁 tomorrow I need to pack my bag for my london trip. I’m so exited. Idk whether I am going to post something during the trip but after that I will post what I ate, bought and saw. good night sweethearts💜

HELLO BEAUTIFUL😍😍😍 -
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Been buzzing for this all day and omg it did not disappoint🙊 a FULL WAFFLE💪🏻 topped with nutella, Ferrero Rocher, nuts and strawberries🍫🥜🍓 with the side of Ferrero Rocher ice cream🍨 and cream🤭 I genuinely feel like I could eat this all again! Feel like a greedy pig saying that but it’s true😂🤣 -
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So, preparations begin! A night to remember and I’m going to make sure it is!!! I refuse to let the fact I’ve eaten this with my friends have a toll on how I feel in a dress! Who cares if I look/feel bloated?! Who cares how much weight I’ve regained lately?! I’m regaining life and freedom and that is all that matters!!! I have more of a genuine smile on my face now than I have done over the past few years and that’s good enough for me! Fuck the weight, fuck the feelings...I want life! I’m going to enjoy tonight and have a dance with the bestest of friends I’ve gained over the past few years! They have never once left my side despite all the shit I’ve gone through, despite making others feel like they couldn’t help me, they never turned their backs! Yes, one or two people did, but to me that just shows that if they can’t handle me at my worst, they sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best!! ONWARDS AND UPWARDS💪🏻💕 -
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Here’s to an amazing night, week, month...LIFE❤️ -
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La serata tutto sommato è andata bene. Certo, non posso dire di non aver avuto difficoltà: non ero io a mettermi il cibo nel piatto e non sempre al mio "va bene così" corrispondeva un arresto. La cotoletta, poi, è uno dei miei fearfoods e le verdure arrostite sguazzavano nell'olio, ma ho mangiato entrambe le cose. Perché la verità è che il cibo non aveva spazio per monopolizzare i miei pensieri: c'era, sì, ma c'erano anche tante altre cose a fargli concorrenza. Amiche, film, chiacchiere, risate... Anche vecchie foto e ricordi, più o meno piacevoli, più o meno bloccati all'interno di una cornice. Forse si spiega così il velo di malinconia che mi si è steso addosso una volta rientrata a casa, o forse era giustificato dall'andamento generale dell'intera giornata, non una delle migliori. La verità è che non mi sono lasciata traspirare: non ve l'ho detto, ma, finita la colazione, ieri mattina, mia mamma avrebbe gradito che avessi mangiato anche del pane. Me l'ha detto e me la sono presa: mi impegno sempre affinché le mie colazioni siano abbondanti, nonostante i confronti con mia sorella, l'incubo del peso che aumenta, la pessima percezione del mio corpo e tutto il resto. Commenti del genere mi feriscono e, soprattutto, se mi si dice o mi si incoraggia caldamente a mangiare qualcosa (sottintendendo che quello che ho già messo nello stomaco non è sufficiente), l'effetto su di me conduce al risultato opposto, mi innervosisco e rischio di vivere male anche momenti o pasti successivi. Quando è tornata in cucina, dopo essersi accorta del mio malumore, mia mamma ha espresso il suo chiarimento con una frase che non credo dimenticherò facilmente: "C'è una parte di me che è profondamente arrabbiata nei tuoi confronti, e a volte viene fuori."
[In foto la colazione di stamattina: pancake con farina integrale di grano tenero bio, farina di riso, crema di zucca 🎃 e banana 🍌, latte 🥛 e lievito per dolci. Quello che vedete spalmato sopra è burro di arachidi 🥜 crunchy della @bulkpowders_it . Trovate la ricetta di questa delizia 😋 nelle stories.]

Went for a different breakfast this morning of two pieces of 50/50 toast🍞topped with @grenadeofficial carb Killa spread😍 and strawberries🍓 I think both me and my body are getting sick of proats at the minute as I’m not being able to finish it most the time as it just gets too sickly...and I have too much to do today anyway so I couldn’t be bothered to sit and make them and then wait for the microwave etc😳😂 -
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So yeah, today’s a busy one...I’ve got to have a shower, wash, dry and straighten my hair😶, then I’m meeting my friend from uni to go somewhere VERY exciting🙊 then we’re going over to a hotel to get ready for the graduation ball tonight👯‍♀️ and then obviously going over to the graduation ball to celebrate🎉 I’m nervous to say the leasttttt! I don’t even know why, like there’s nothing to be nervous about AT ALL! So why am I stressing? My heads giving me a lot of shit that because I’ve got to wear a dress tonight that I need to compensate on food today...but we all know that’s bullshit and can’t happen! I’ve got a lot to do to keep myself busy so hopefully the thoughts should fade! I haven’t even packed my bags or anything! We’re staying at the hotel tonight too, I’ve got work tomorrow and then I have my new showgirl Job tomorrow evening....busy weekend then really because then I’ve got work Sunday too🙊😂 there’s no stopping with me!!!! -
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I’ll leave you with those: to the one soul that’s reading this...I know you’re tired. you’re fed up. You’re so close to breaking BUT there is strength within you, even when you feel week! Please, keep fighting❤️ -
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⚠️⚠️ Tener una alimentación saludable no significa restringirte una lista entera de alimentos. Es aprender y moderar la manera en la que los consumimos. ☝🏼 .
Yo, con base en MI experiencia, con MI cuerpo y con MI forma de pensar (no tiene que ser igual que la tuya), el hecho de tener una “dieta” y sentir el compromiso de cumplirla, me causaba muchísimo estrés, porque no me permitía fallar, la Andrea anterior no se permitía fallar en nada. Era muy estricta conmigo misma y la restricción de plano A MÍ no me funcionaba. El fallar en tonterías como una dieta, me generaba sentimientos de culpa, insatisfacción, me sentía poco fuerte a decir NO y me saboteaba todo el tiempo. POR DIOS… fallar es lo más humano del mundo 🌎! Es normal e incluso está comprobado que el organismo humano está diseñado para sentir deseos de comer ciertos alimentos. .
Se que en este camino hay much@s como YO, que tal vez tienen deseos de cuidarse pero no han encontrado la forma adecuada. Algunos podrán hacer dietas sin problemas y sin sentir ansiedad, pero no a todos nos pasa lo mismo… no todos funcionamos igual. Existimos personas que la restricción en cualquier asunto de la vida, NO nos va bien Y ES NORMAL SER UNO DE ELLOS. Hay que admirar a las personas que pueden hacerlo y aceptar que si no eres uno de ellos, no lo eres y ya, no pasa absolutamente nada. 👏🏻 ¿Porque? PORQUE HAY MUCHAS OTRAS FORMAS DE CUIDARTE. 🙌🏽 Una de ellas es APRENDER a comer de acuerdo a tus objetivos, pero sabiendo que tienes la libertad de escoger tus alimentos y optar por los que te hagan sentir mejor A TI 👉🏼 ! .
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Let's all just accept and respect body diversity. The fact that the diet industry/culture wants us to believe that there's just one good way to have a body is pathetic. All bodies are good bodies, weight shouldn't impact our sense of worth. .
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Jas - 1, Twix - 0 for today’s challenge💪🏼🍫

Kvällis hemma igen blev soygurt med müsli och ett rostat bröd med kalkon och gurka. 💜
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Gick jätte bra att äta kvällis hemma igår så fick åka hem idag igen. Det var så sjuuuukt skönt att sova i sin egna säng, kände mig så utvilad i kroppen imorse. 💕

today’s #breakfast😍💛 wholegrain bread with butter and a wafer bar, which I bought in poland🇮🇩 my appointment by my therapist went pretty well^^ and guess what... I am going to London😍❤️ I am so happy and really excited but also scared bc we’ll live in guests families😬 but I am gonna beat this. hope your day was also good. Good night hny🧡

#fitbounce #workout by MarieCke!
Zweten!! Hard gewerkt toppers!!!
Van 8 tot 65 allemaal bij elkaar tot wel 1000 KCAL per uur verbranden!!. Doe jij een keer mee?
#love #life #fit #healthy #workout #zandvoortaanzee #weightlosstransfornation #balance #fitnesslifestyle #positive #goodvibes #happy #mindful #balance #beatingeatingdisorders #happyinshape #weightloss #workout

Did someone say mums cooking for dinner?🤭🤭🤭 literally just got back from work and I can’t not be arsed to cook so fuck it, I said yes to my mums lasagne😍😍😍 and homemade dry roasted paprika wedges🙊 and damnnnn, it’s banging! I freaked out as when I saw it I saw the layer on the top...I thought it was cheese, wrong, it’s quark, egg and a little bit of cheese....whatever the hell that is? I don’t know but it’s some kind of slimming world bullshit recipe😂 -
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Work was so dead, like ridiculously dead! I basically walked around in a massive circle for 3 hours trying to kill the time😂 just glad to be home now and fuelling for the gym later💪🏻 -
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I won’t lie to you guys, I feel really unworthy and like I don’t need support anymore☹️ basically, like I said earlier today, I was meant to be seeing my therapist but because of having work, I had to cancel HOWEVER, I couldn’t get through to her this morning and if I’m late to meetings, she usually phones me...low and behold, I had no call asking where I was😶🙊 so now I feel like why should I even bother trying to phone again tomorrow to rearrange? I clearly am not a concern anymore😕 I dunno, I guess I’m just struggling but I’m scared to admit it😳 but then I’ve just admitted it...ahhh, why’s it so easy to real off to you guys but not to my therapist?! -
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Body image is trash and I feel like shite but I’m going to keep plodding on and get on with life...I hope you’re all okay!❤️❤️❤️ -
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Ours trials are for a purpose. They strengthen us, teach us, and help us grow into the person Heavenly Father knows we can become. They give us the ability to show love and compassion to those around us - for we all are fighting battles no one knows about.
I want to share a big victory I’m cherishing this September.
One year ago this month I allowed bulimia to get the best of me for the last time. One year ago when the stress of life and recovering became too much, I gave into the disorder believing it would make it all better. Although I’m still not where I wanna be, I thank God everyday that I’m not where I used to be.
Lately, I’ve been struggling. The past several weeks I have found myself beginning to pick up old anxious thoughts/habits regarding food and body image. The temptation to give up on everything I’ve worked so hard for hits me more often than I would like to admit. I wish I could say I’m 100% recovered and never think twice about it, but that’s not realistic. I’m a human being, I’m not perfect, and I have weaknesses. The number on the scale, the size of my waist, and the distorted way I view my body means nothing in comparison to how much I am valued by my Heavenly Father and Savior.

I know these trials are for a much bigger purpose. they give me the compassion and understanding I need to be able to achieve my future career goals. They have given me the ability to heal others from similar trials and despite it all, I am grateful.

Just because these battles may need to be fought more than once does not mean the progress you’ve already made has gone to waste. It’s going to be an uphill battle fighting thoughts you’ve lived with for more than half your life. Changing a behavior you’ve had years to develop does not happen overnight.

I’m posting this as a reminder not only for myself, but for each of you reading this. Whatever your weaknesses may be, you can and you will get through it. All that is ever asked of us is that we still continue to try no matter how many tries it takes!
No matter how many times I fall back, I am forever grateful for the support system that has grown around me.

Mi siedo a studiare, gli occhi aperti sui libri e la testa altrove. Ci sono giorni in cui la concentrazione mi dà proprio buca, gli stessi in cui poi finisco per non pensare ad altro che al cibo: cosa ho mangiato a colazione, cosa preparerò per quella di domani mattina, cosa c'è per pranzo, cosa posso cucinare per la cena, per quella di stasera, di domani, della prossima settimana. In questi casi, un espediente che mi aiuta a cambiare frequenza è mettere per iscritto le idee per i pasti del giorno (e di quelli a venire, se la fantasia è particolarmente prolifica). In questo modo sono più tranquilla e, nonostante questa sorta di pianificazione, non mi lascio destabilizzare troppo dai fuori programma. Si tratta di piccole mosse che, sommate e messe in atto, giorno per giorno, possono tracciare una strategia utile a fronteggiare circostanze scomode e meccanismi disfunzionali generati dal disturbo. Voi ne adottate qualcuna in particolare? Se sì, in che occasioni? Scrivetemelo nei commenti se vi va. ⤵️
[In foto il pranzo di oggi: riso venere con zucca 🎃 a vapore, avocado 🥑, tonno 🐟, semini e olio evo. L'ho provato sia con la crema di sesamo che con quella di anacardi crudi, entrambe della @damiano_organic , ma alla fine ho preferito l'accoppiata col burro di arachidi crunchy preso su @bulkpowders_it . Quanto al riso venere, concordo pienamente con @dearnewme__ : il profumo che sprigiona in cottura è afrodisiaco! 😍]

So....my heads playing up today telling me not to have my snack...so I decided that I would have an even more challenging snack than normal just to spite my brain 🧠. Hope you are all having a nice day and manage to enjoy despite the weather. Any questions feel free to ask #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #edrecoveryquotes #anorexiawarrior #bingeeating #eatingdisorderawareness #anorexiawarriors #beatingeatingdisorders #depression #selfhate #broken #ananotwinning #recovery #recoveryisworthit #edwontwin #inspire #inspirationalquotes #inspiration #bestrong #dontgiveup #talktome #prorecovery #selfharmawareness #selfharm

Did the same again last night...had supper, showered & went to bed just after the boys as I was really tired again. 😆
Anyway...breakfast was a bit of a struggle this morning... I had a lil wobble to myself because I wasn’t feeling particularly great again, but I continued anyway. 💪🏻
Feeling better now! 👌🏻
Took the boys to school again, walked back & then walked into town with my mum.
We’re currently having coffee (ft. Coconut milk cappuccino ☕️)
Meeting Bethy soon! 😊 And going for lunch somewhere! 🙊

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