I can't believe last year I had the amazing opportunity to work with @artyom_samigullin For my first photoshoot. It was such a great experience and I cannot expressed how grateful I am to all the amazing people in my life that made that happen. Last year was filled with accomplishments - graduating with my MSW, obtaining my LSW, the photoshoot and finally competing in my first two shows. This year, on the other hand, has been mainly focused on change, planting seeds and personal growth. I haven't really posted anything meaningful and seeing all these memories pop up about prep last year, I figured this would be a good opportunity to do so. I had so much fun in prep but afterwords is a different story. Even though I was very informed about the concept of rebounding, my brain was not willing to except that and after seeing the water flow back into body, my eating disorder brain began to kick in and I literally thought I was 3 times the size I actually was. With that combined with trying to now figure out my life (since grad school and prep WAS my life) and the holidays, I rebounded a little more then I had hoped. I finally found a full time job - not using my degree - but a job nonetheless which I hoped would give me structure so I can get back into a routine and focusing on my fitness goals. Well that was a false hope because I was working crazy hours and had absolutely no control over my day. I also moved - which is extremely exciting and I love my new place - and decided that I wanted to work on having more balance in my life and really start to address some of old eating disorder behaviors that had resurfaced and resulting in self-sabotaging myself. Well, I started gaining more weight and couldn't figure out why (considering how I work out and the amount of muscle I have) until I had blood work done and found out I had Hashimoto's - an autoimmune disorder that has slowly been destroying my thyroid. There's more to that story but I've started medication and I'm working with the doctor on figuring out the right dosage.