So, I'm not one to post two pictures of myself in a day. Nor one to take selfies, but I need to say something. This isn't my normal post. As of late, I've been extremely self conscious, in more ways than one. I've battled anxiety and low self esteem. Due to this, I started getting really self conscious about how I looked and started wearing makeup far more often than I used to.
I didn't wear much in the past, but I started wearing more and more. It might not be a lot to some people, but the issue is I felt that I had to have it on. I wasn't comfortable without it. I started relying on makeup to feel confident. Anxiety about the future and other things had me in a constant state of worry and tension inside, so I focused on looking good outside. It wasn't healthy. My makeup was a mask to hide behind.
Today I decided that enough was enough. I've still got issues to deal with, but first I need to love myself. I need to be confident in who God made me. No hiding behind an image. So, this week. I'm swearing off makeup. My eyes may not be defined, I may feel like my nose looks too big and my complexion might break out... but that's okay. It's natural. So, here's the start.
From here on out I'm striving to be as authentic and natural in every aspect of my life. It's time to let go of the worries and issues of the past. I am fearfully and wonderfully made. There's nothing wrong with acknowledging that.
If you're struggling with anything, I encourage you to detox yourself from it, whatever it may be. Take off your makeup or get rid of anything keeping you from loving who you really are. Smile more and worry less.