I'm here looking through some old photos! WHOA! .
So the 📸 on the left in purple suit, was when I brought home some hardware in June 2012. .
📸 on the right are from my @wbff_official #ProDebut August 2015.
🤔 I'm sitting here wondering what the heck was I was doing in the purple suit?! I got caught up in chasing that hardware. Chasing being as lean as possible at all cost just for the stage. Doing 2hrs cardio every day, dropping calories every wk, if I wasn't suffering I wasn't going to get results. Back then I felt like I was accomplishing something and being driven and getting the results I needed for judges to look at me. Really what was happening was, my upper body kept getting smaller and my lower and upper didn't match. I was always tired, easily ticked off, not focused, hungry all the time and after the shows I would over indulge in nutella, oreos and junk (which i never ate before I started 'contest prep'). I did 5 shows in 2012 and burnt myself out, physcially and mentally. After my last show that year, I wanted to keep training and wanted to get back on stage again (i truly enjoy being on stage, been a hobby of mine since I was 16). It was hard to get started mentally. I couldnt commit to a show date, just the thought of doing all that cardio was such a turn off. I felt like a failure. I didn't visually look any different but sure felt bad about not being able to get going.
I came across a different type of lifestyle, a different way of prepping for a show. Decided to give it a try. Started end of April 2013. It was hard having faith in something new and not seeing the results right away BUT wayyy less and different types of cardio, eatting balanced meals and having cheat meals, enjoying going to the gym again. In the photos on the right, I'm feeling focused, feel extremely proud of myself for sticking to something healthy. Don't feel all dried out and NO cravings!! Look forward to see where my journey takes me! .
Have any of you have/had these struggles?? .
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