Sorry the posts have been scarce recently and I haven't responded to comments or messages I've not disappeared I've just been struggling with a few things and haven't particularly felt like posting anything.
I guess before having my daughter I was naive, I knew it was going to be hard at times but I also thought I'd be able to ace motherhood, get back in shape straight away and basically be Wonder Woman with my little mini me in tow and everything would be all sunshine and lollipops 🍭🌈✨
I was wrong 😞 so far I've found everything harder than I thought it would be. Indiana's been struggling with silent reflux and a cows milk intolerance and its been a total nightmare, that along with the fact I failed at breastfeeding, we've had a nightmare with some of the docs (not all), I've still not got back into my old jeans, I've been feeling guilty because I've had a lot of help and I still feel like I'm struggling, I've ended up reaching anxiety level 5000 and had panic attacks about nothing and at times I've felt miserable, useless and pretty disappointed in myself.
Thankfully after bottling up how I felt for weeks I finally spoke about how I felt to a few of my nearest and dearest last week and it has helped a lot. A problem shared is a problem halved, honestly.
Don't bottle things up and struggle in silence and never underestimate the power of a good nights sleep.
Things are now a million times better and I don't want to jinx it but Indie seems to of turned a corner and has been a pretty happy baby since the end of last week. 2 mins of her smiling makes the bad times all worth it 💕 and from now on more mindfulness and positive thinking ✌🏻
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