To Isaac, my first born.. Don't know if it's pregnancy hormones but I am currently inconsolable as I lay in bed with happy tears. What another perfect day we had. We didn't get up to much but just like each day, it was special as always. We just put you to bed and like each night, I physically miss you and can't wait to see you already. As I feel your little fetal sister move inside my belly more and more each day, I feel more excitement and anticipation in meeting her, but as I feel more love, I also feel more guilt as I know our days with you as our only child is coming near it's end.
You were made inside of me and for the whole 10 months I carried you, we were never apart. You were the one who made me a mother and from now till the end, we will never be apart because you will always be a part of me. My heart aches so much because I can't believe how much love I have for you. Is it possible to feel so much love for such a tiny person? It hurts to know that when you grow up, you will probably no longer remember these memories you have as a baby and toddler. But luckily, mummy will always remember and hopefully you will never forget the love we made you feel, little one. My day starts out beautifully just from seeing your sunshine smile in the morning as you bounce in your crib excited to see me. It ends perfectly as you cuddle into my arms to give me a big kiss before telling me you love me. I can't believe how cute you are at times that I wonder if you are really all ours. Right now, I'm more immobile from carrying LaLa but you rather stay home to be with me than to go out outside to explore in the sun. I will forever cherish these moments while you need me so much. While you will probably grow up to have your own little family of your own, I know I might not be your everything forever but you will always be my everything. You're growing up to be such a caring and gentle little boy. We know you will be the best big brother in the world. I can't wait to watch you two grow up. Either way, no matter what- you will always be my baby. Thank you for everything you have given us already, Isaac. I love you forever... #isaacng #babybubz #amotherslove