You saw her and you knew you wanted her. You wanted her hooked to you and walk proudly by her side. You wanted to see your face in her deep, almond eyes. You wanted to plant your dreams in her head. You wanted to kiss her lips and learn her face. You thought it would be enough. You thought that is how it begins and it stays like that. Then you stopped saying your honey dipped lies. Then you stopped the pretending and made it clear you had what you wanted. You stopped trying to keep her. You never thought her eyes would drop feelings like tiny rain drops. You never thought her lips will remember yours. You never thought that those dreams will take roots in her, so deep, so strong that when you leave, you’d take a part of her with you. You never thought her heart would hold on to yours, like some desperate hope of being loved for who she is and not for what she looks like. You thought you could love her body without reaching her soul. You made her feel so, didn’t you? You knew your way with locks so you said the magic words ‘I love you for who you are’ and her heart clicked open like a flower.
You thought she would never think, would never feel you were after all playing with her. You had her, you fool, you had someone who loved you like no one could. And you took that love, folded it in pretty ribbons and put it up on the shelf. You thought now that you have her, you can make her look like something, someone regular. You stopped saying your lies and magic words, you thought she’ll stay no matter how bad you treated her. You had a special love and you, you turned it into something ordinary. You lost her.
— trophy // d i s h a