The Music City and another of the many places I come to work.
I was sitting in the office today and happened upon a deeply personal and loving email from the woman I love. We had a minor argument on the phone one night and things had been slightly tense between us as we both had some personal things we were and still are dealing with. I had gone to bed and admittedly not resolved this argument to the level she and I felt comfortable with. She out of this distress wrote me an email stating her love for me, how she felt alive with me, how I had her heart, she wanted to be with me always and was sorry for her behavior of recently. Upon the next morning, I saw this email, read it and cried. It was I who failed her in my eyes, not her failing me. I responded with my own heartfelt email stating my love for her, my pain and dissatisfaction with my time apart from her due to my career and the instability within myself causing me to not be at my most supportive for her. I spoke of how precious the miracle of her being in my life was to me and that I cherished every minute spent with her. Fast forward 3 months and we are not together, heck I don’t even think you’re what we would call acquaintances at this point, another haunting, heartbreaking and soul crushing realization of everything I have done wrong to her since. What the email shows, besides what I knew and always knew about her love for me, is that I hadn’t appreciated the miracle of her. If I did, I wouldn’t have lied. If I did, I wouldn’t have been so insecure and doubtful. If I did, I would have had higher resolve of myself to be my most supportive for her. The point is, you must appreciate everyone and everything in your life with all of your being, because you never know when what you loved so much, will boil down to a lovely yet painful email archived in your inbox.
More from my adventures to come.
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