Sometimes I don't think i can bare this pain. The loss i feel when I hear or say your name. Its excruciating when i see your picture. I want to love you and hold you and feel you in my arms. I want to smell your hair and every essence of you. Tears stream down my face without control, to think of the pain and misunderstanding my dis-ease has caused. I can not take it back, i scream inside every last nerve ending only death will subside. The shame and heartbreak of a mothers pain... the lost child her name is Jordan Rain. I try to hope if a day where we can be... a little slice of heaven in the park my daughter and me. I watch you play and i smile inside the dreams of a mother no longer do they reside. I want so bad to touch your face and take on more or all your pain. Its all i can do as i circle the drain. Misery and remorse in my soul i weep.. i toss and i turn why cant i just sleep.. with dreams of you and a better day. Tomorrow another chance alone I pray. One day please god bring her back.. nothingness whispers the darkness does attack... alone in my thoughts i sit here and i cry... the last wish of a mother before i die.. today i hold on and look to the sky. My vision is of you daughter in my third eye. Holding your hand and laughing with you. It is my vision i try to break threw! One day one day my dear child of mine.. never easy did this get til my last breath. #JordanRain#jordanrainmelissapenrod#aprilfools#april12007#myonlychild#theloveofmylife#nevergiveup#143 imissyou #daughter#foreverinmyheart#alwaysonmymind#neverstopedwantingyou#youareperfect#neverfeelbad
Wishing our Muslim brothers and sisters a happy celebration! Happy Eid El Maulud!