💔August 11, 2017
Today marks 4 months since we've had you. What would you look like today? Would you be rolling over on your own or recognizing faces? What size clothes would you be in or where would you be the most ticklish? What would you sound like? How heavy would you feel because you were only 5lbs. 10oz. the day you were born. The sadness is heavy - I don't want to know the weight of hurt I want to know the weight of my son. 💔
I feel shattered on the inside. Mostly because the world doesn't know how to deal with death. One of the hardest parts for me is walking and talking like everything is normal - it's not normal. Most of the time people don't know what to say so they don't say anything at all, and that hurts too. It's not like they can say anything that reminds me of you because I'm already always thinking of you. 💔
You're so beautiful to us. You made our family whole. Every day I look at you (not only with my eyes but with my heart). I look to God and thank Him for allowing me to carry you, and feel you, and know you. He let me be your vessel and I'm honored to be your mom.
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