"When did I become so numb? When did I lose myself? All the words that leave my tongue Feel like they came from someone else
I'm paralyzed Where are my feelings? I no longer feel things I know I should I'm paralyzed Where is the real me? I'm lost and it kills me - inside I'm paralyzed" ~NF (tbh I could quote that whole song)
Sorry that I haven't written anything yesterday but everything was too much and I just couldn't do anything. You guys must know, I'm dissociating at the moment. I just can't function normally.
Today was stressful. I had been at the doctor's office with my father. He has been discharged from the hospital yesterday. I have been to the gym and normally I would have handball practice at the moment but it got cancelled due to the storm that is happening right now. We only have the opportunity to do the practice outside.
Except for that I'm just numb and so so tired. I don't know. But the storm is making me happy.