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I can’t expresso how much you bean to me☕️💗
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Jaja der Kaffee am Morgen😅. Ich trinke zwar nicht jeden Tag welchen aber, wenn wird er richtig genossen😍. Ich liebe ja Kaffee schon seid ich ganz klein bin. Aber genug jetzt von☕️. Mein Tag war heute eigentlich ganz okay. Mir fällt es zwar immer noch sehr schwer meinen Körper zu akzeptieren aber ja. Ich glaube das sage ich in jeden post oder? Naja aber es beschäftigt mich einfach total. Ich sehe so viele dünne Mädchen und könnte dann wirklich nur noch weinen. Ich würde mich gerne mal wirklich realistisch sehen🙄....
Morgen habe ich zum Glück nur bis 13:00 Uhr Uni und danach werde ich nach einem neuen Buch schauen☺️. Donnerstag habe ich dann frei🎉 aber nicht vor😅. Ich wünsche euch noch einen schönen Abend😘💞

I hate how I look in this photo but still posting it cause I shouldn’t focus only on how I look. This was taken on Sunday, first day mum came to London. So far we are having a good time. I know I am eating normally but apparently that is too much for my body or something as last night after a normal dinner and a pint of beer I got so full and bloated I was in pain. Maybe was the beer as I usually don’t drink beer with my food. Anyway the cauliflower macaroni and cheese was really good. Yesterday I had those thin waffles, a slice of cake, a burger and some fries, churros and the mac and cheese. As I said normal intake. Today got uni and probably food at bella italia. Tonight going to watch Matilda the musical. Should be fun. Now doing some philosophy reading and will do some econ too. It’s nice having mum here but kinda tired of her already 😂. Love her but living in my room, sharing a bed etc. can be hard. Anyway today should be good. Looking forward to the musical.
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Wow second post today.
Today has been a long day. Woke up, cleaned room, went to Sainsbury and right afterwards to Camden Town. We spent 6h shopping, and exploring the area. Got a tiny bag, leopard pants from Urban Outfitters. Yesterday I got some cute soft pants from a vintage store at Shoreditch, and a pair of gloves. Still need to get a new pair of shoes though. Mum has bought some stuff too. After walking around for hours I got the new vegan burger at honest burgers. Was so yummy. Kinda finding it hard that my mum doesn’t eat lunch but trying to convince myself that I need 3 meals a day. And well, since I was at Camden market I had to treat myself to something sweet. Got churros, which I shared with mum. Now back to mines. We are going out for dinner tonight but not sure where. We kinda just choose while passing by the restaurants. Probably we ll have something near Shoreditch or Liverpool street since Bethnal green is super close to both. Will post on my stories what we ll get xx.
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#tb to last night’s dinner with mum.
Food was lovely, and it was nice for once to eat at a nice restaurant. Today we are probably going to the city centre or maybe Westfield or Camden. Might eat in China town not sure yet. Should be a nice day (despite the weather). Just had breakfast and now we gonna go to Sainsbury to buy some things we need. Will post on my story what we ll do afterwards. What’s been kinda hard because of my mum being here is food. Having all those meals and eating out a lot. But I ll be ok. I ll manage.
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Mummy visited me in London. She was super worried but she saw that I am alright so now we are just trying to have fun. Feeling so bad that she had to go through all this, thinking I am not ok and unwell and in hospital... Today I took her to Shoreditch, Brike Lane, Boxpark, Spitafiels market. We had coffee, I got Macha and we also had a vegan brownie and a blueberry sticky bun. We did some shopping and we had lunch and a pint of beer at the Boxpark. Then we visited some more stores and headed back home. In a bit we are going out for dinner. Either Nandos or at a pub.
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Some of my best friends never say a word to me🐶💗
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Guten Abend oder besser gesagt Nacht💞😅
Heute Nachmittag war ich mit meinen Eltern und Hunden spazieren und dabei haben wir ein paar Fotos gemacht, was echt ganz schön war☺️. Ich finde es irgendwie immer voll schwer ein gutes Bild mit meinen Hunden hinzubekommen😆. Sonst habe ich nicht wirklich viel gemacht. PTW
Mein bodyimage war heute auch nicht so gut, weil gefühlt jeder um mich herum viel dünner ist und das triggert mich so stark. Generell ist es vor dem schlafengehen dann immer am schlimmsten, sodass ich manchmal wirklich fast anfangen muss zu heulen😥. TWE
Habt ihr ein Lieblingstier?🙈🦊🐯🐭

Das sond Verbandsmaterialien von 9 Monaten offener Beine, verursacht durch Wassereinlagerungen wegen der #Essstörung. Warum ich das poste? Weil die Beine seit heute zu sind. Kein Pflegedienst mehr, keine Kompression. Sollte mich freuen und erleichtern, tuts auch, aber es macht mir auch ne riesige #Angst.
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I m quite upset cause someone proved to me that I was right to hide my story from them. Telling my mum that I m in hospital without knowing the reason I went there causing her to worry and call me crying. Making a mess and creating drama. Mum is visiting tomorrow cause she thought I am not ok. I am fine, I am doing great, actually quite happy with my life and especially with my degree. At least I ll spend some quality time with my mother, who I haven’t seem since August.
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#afternoonsnack was an iced gingerbread latte from Starbucks (Werbung🙄) which was amazing😍 Also a little recoverywin because they topped it with whipped cream. But it was not as hard as I expected😊.
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Gestern Abend habe ich noch ganz spontan erfahren, dass ich heute frei habe und ich habe mich echt mega gefreut😅. So konnte ich noch ein paar Sachen erledigen. Heute hatte ich auch wieder Therapie und es war echt hilfreich. Wir haben unter anderem über Körperakzeptanz gesprochen, womit ich gerade echt zu kämpfen habe😔. Morgen muss ich wieder recht früh aufstehen aber dafür ist ja dann Wochenende🎉💞. Ich wünsche euch noch einen schönen Abend☺️💗

Aus irgendeinem Grund finde ich das Rollstuhlfahren total super!😅 (Natürlich bin ich froh darüber 2 gesunde Beine zu haben und nicht auf den Rollstuhl angewiesen zu sein!😉)
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Today was so stressful! Woke up super early to be at uni early and have time to get a coffee. Central line strike destroyed my plans. Thought getting an Uber would had been the fastest way to make it to my 9am lecture. Got stuck in traffic for 1h and 40min. Anxiety was so bad. I was so freaked out driver asked me if I am ok... I arrived 30min late and obviously missed the lecture. But then I thought that since I have 2.5h free till my next lecture ,why spend them stressed walking around or trying to get readings done when I could treat myself to a lovely breakfast at Bill’s? I hadn’t had breakfast and was probably gonna skipped it but I decided instead to get breakfast out. I got the fruits pancakes, a latte and a cranberry juice. Super hard to finish, took me a lot of time, but finished it all. Guilty but it was so good. After all we do need to treat ourselves on a lovely breakfast every now and then. Tonight had dinner out as well. Hellenic society had an event at a greek taverna in Camden town. Actually food was really good. Now watching some bake off to take my mind off the guilt of eating so much today. A lovely day nonetheless. .
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New podcast episodes released today featuring Janine ( @janinenaomilive ), a leader, businesswoman, and journal author.
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Janine and I were in residential treatment together in 2007. As the first person that I knew who was doing well in her recovery, she was someone that I looked up to. In her story she talks about the feeling of loneliness and how it contributed to her eating disorder. She also talks about how having a recovery pet, being in a sales position, and starting to live life on HER terms helped her in recovery. In my conversation with Janine, she and I also talk about how to find motivation to heal when the people around you don’t understand your struggle and having a relationship with how your body looks.
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Link in bio or listen on my website at
alwaysabeing.com/podcast
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~a snap selfie 👻 ~
Today I was thinking about my life. Actually about my ED and how it has affected my life. Mental health in general has had quite an impact in many different areas of my life but I feel like my ED , probably cause I have struggled the longer with it, has been the most destructive in a way. I honestly cannot remember ever not having issues with how much I weigh or food. First bad thoughts about me looking fat, or actually fatter, than other girls was when I was a toddler. When 4 I started ballet, and what I remember is feeling fat in comparison to the other girls while looking in the mirror. I just hate how many things I have lost because of it. Ballet one of the things I loved, my senior year of high school, friends, holidays, birthdays, nights out, socializing, relationships. And it’s just always present. Cannot get rid of it. Today I haven’t had the most positive day. Just keep feeling like I will never get better and low key want to give up. I will not, but thought is there. Torturing me. I have tried so many different therapies and medications and inpatient treatments. Just kind of frustrated. And now feeling like my meds stopped working, and already in such a high dose. Anyway on the positive note, my life in general is the best it has been in years. I love London, my degree, generally pleased with my life at the moment.
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Am I the only one who is always happy about finding new things while grocery shopping?😅💞
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Heute war wieder ein langer Tag in der Uni und ich bin echt froh den hinter mir zu haben. Der Rest der Woche wird zum Glück ziemlich entspannt🙈. Ich habe mich jetzt „länger“ nicht gemeldet, weil ich nicht wirklich Zeit zum Bilder machen hatte😅. Sonst geht es mir auch ganz gut. Ich bin in letzter Zeit wirklich oft am lachen und das freut mich so sehr☺️. Mit dem Essen läuft es auch ganz ok. Ich habe noch mit den Mengen hin und wieder zu kämpfen und auch die Gedanken sind manchmal echt schwer auszuhalten aber es wird. Sonst gibt es meinerseits nicht wirklich was zu erzählen. Ich wünsche euch noch einen schönen Abend😘💗

Eins der letzten #mitbringsel aus den #usa, #proteinpulver à la #Banane. Voll #lecker!
Bei mir läuft es momentan etwas besser. Ich schlafe viel, bewege mich wenig, sage sogar gegen den verdammten #perfektionismus meine Sportkurse ab, esse viel,... Tue also viel, um gerade akut #gesund zu werden. Mit schlechtem Gewissen. Ich weiß, es wird be und leichter, aber gerade ist es das eben nicht.
Aber ich bin ja selbst schuld an der Situation und musswillkann jetzt auch die Verantwortung dafür übernehmen.
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Tb to when I last saw my bae @marina_sot .
First good morning. (Lol)
Last night was not that great. My fault but well sometimes we make mistakes. Yesterday I was feeling numb , empty . After a couple of days with very intense emotions I was suddenly left with nothing and I desperately needed to feel something. Was like waiting for someone or something to happen, but not knowing what. Got dressed up and went upstairs to the common room . I hanged out with some people from my hall, got drunk and ate pizza. I am not sure if cause I was drunk but last night I had one of those nights u miss all the people u care about my dog my fp my best friend my parents my brother my grandparents and i woke up at 5 with the irrational fear that something will happen to everyone I care about .So frustrating I used to get that a lot as a child. Waking up in the middle of the night checking if my fam is alive and calling my grandparents. I hate this feeling .
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🇬🇧 I spend years hating my body, myself and essentially my life.
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The number on the scale was more important than anything in my life.
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I was obsessed with my body. Constant body checking was part of my daily life. I was more concerned about still being able to reach around my upper arm than calling my dying grandpa.
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Today I realize what a waste of my time all of that was. I see how I used up all my energy for - yeah for what exactly actually?
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Now I use my energy to actually build a life that I love and to love on myself and to love my body.
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How could you love on your body today? Let me know your idea in the comments. I'd love to support you, keep you accountable to follow through and love on you. ❤
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🇩🇪 Ich habe Jahre damit verbracht meinen Körper, mich selbst und letztendlich mein Leben zu hassen.
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Die Zahl auf der Wage war wichtiger als irgendetwas anderes in meinem Leben.
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Alles drehte sich um meinen Körper. Tägliches Körperchecken war total normal. Mir war es wichtiger, ob ich immer noch um meinen Oberarm greifen konnte als meinen todkranken Opa anzurufen.
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Heute sehe ich welch eine Zeitverschwendung das alles war. Ich sehe nun wie ich all meine Energie für - ja für was eigentlich vergeudet habe?
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Nun nutze ich meine Energie, um mein Leben lebenswert zu gestalten und mich selbst und meinen Körper zu lieben.
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Auf welche Art könntest du heute deinem Körper Liebe schenken?
Schreib mir deine Idee in die Kommentare. Ich würde dich gerne unterstützen, accountable halten und dir Liebe schenken. ❤
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To all of my friends and clients who are both yoga teachers and ED sufferers:
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I’ve heard it so many times - “I feel like a fraud because I teach yoga and I have an eating disorder.”
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We are ALL works in progress.
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If you are unapologetically accepting a life of massive growth and improvement, even when it’s hard, even when you’re not always 100% “successful”, even when you need to rest, then you are living your yoga.
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Practice, not perfection. On and off your mat.
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Thank you. The light in me bows to the light before me. Namaste. And all of the other things yoga people say 🙏🏻
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