{dinner} corn on the cob, green beans, mushrooms and roasted potatoes! 🤤💗 I loaded up on potatoes after I finished the plate 😋🌸 ————————————————————— #recoveryisworthit #recoverywin #anorexicrecovery #ana #anorexia #ed #eatingdisorder #edrecovery #anarecovery #food #dinner

Good evening warriors! It will get easier....it will get easier! Stay strong and enjoy! 9-24-18

Breakfast: 1/2 cup rolled oats with coconut flour and flax seed, strawberries with protein powder dip, 1 applesauce, 2 oz turkey, and 1 #traderjoes pumpkin yogurt with pumpkin butter
Snack: 1 #simplyprotein bar, 1 red pear, #gardettos snaxk mix and 1 tortilla with peanut butter
Lunch: 1 salad with apple, raspberry vinaigrette, and pecans, 1 #morningstarfarms veggie patty and pretzels with #traderjoes blue cheese dip, 1 #traderjoes honey yogurt
Snack: 1 rice cake with peanut butter and chia seed, 1 bag #traderjoes kettle corn, Greek yogurt with 1 #smashmallow and @kimhoeltje pumpkin cake bites!!! New fav recipe 😍😍
Dinner: Banana French toast with #questprotein and banana on top, carrots and mushroom, 1 #quorn chikn cutlet and 1 #lightandfit yogurt with chow mein noodles
Snack: 1 #eatenlightened TRIPLE SHOT ESPRESSO !!!!! ❤️❤️ and 1 bag #sunkist prunes and 1 #atkins chocolate candy pack, 1 #ensureplus
#anorexia #anorexicrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #chooserecovery #edwin #eating #edrecovery #eatittobeatit #fdoe #foodisfuel #fuelyourbody #foodismedicine #fulldayofeating #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #strongnotskinny #survivingandthriving

Breakfast was an Allen Light Salted Caramel ZB are ☺️ Never usually have cereal bars at breakfast so thought I would switch it up snd these are really tasty - not really salted caramel but s nice caramel cereal bar - one if my staples 💚

Today has not been s great day, I had such positive few days but Monday’s are always hard so I knew it may not last and yep that’s what I happened
I stay in bed till really late as was tired but I felt ok about it until my dad cane home from work early to find me snd said how are you still in bed which then made me switch and feel really bad and guilty about it 😔 I then lost all motivation to do my planner even though my dad kept asking me to do it but I also had no clue what to put on it so I just went to Sainsbury’s with my dad not knowing snything.. we wondered around for ages but I was getting stressed out as I couldn’t find anything I fancied or would work with my head ugh my dad was getting really annoyed as it was getting late snd we would be late to pick my mum up from work so I just agreed to find things st home and said I would do my plsn after dance
I got dropped off st Lidl for a walk round there after picking up my mum as it was hassle to come back to town again so I just said I would have a wonder round as I was an hour early
My dad gave me some money in case I saw anything in Lidl I wanted which was really nice 💓 I did find a few bits just some of those pea snaps thst everyone of you seems to have as they were only £1 I thought I would see what the hype is about and then some dry shampoo I wanted for when I cbs to wash my hair and my hair stinks of chips from work so hopefully it will sort that out 😂 I then went into dance which was justxstsndard really today - me embarrassing myself trying to keep up with everyone else but failing as I can’t do it 😔 there was s bit in contemporary where I had to dance by myself but I forgot the whole thing I hated myself as the teacher called me out on as everyone else could do it and she got another girl who is so full of herself and annoying to help me learn it ❌ my teacher did say it’s s confidence thing as she knows I can do it am I glad she thought that ...

Night Snack was Maxi Muscle Promax Millionaires Shortbread Flavour Protein Bar 🙌🏻
I haven’t had a protein bar in a while but I love them so much and was really craving one chose this one out of my snacks stash to try!
It was really nice - had a tasty thin layer of caramel in it with a caramel flavour protein layer that was not too chewy at all like some can be - was just really yummy and satisfying
Was really looking forward to it as I love millionaires shortbread was a bit of let down on that front though
Idk where the biscuit from the millionaires shortbread cane in I guess the chocolate coating and caramel gave that kinda flavour it was a bit boring not my favourite flavour of the Maxi Muscle bars but was still super yummy all the same 💥
Obvs will never be as good as Granada or quest bars though
Protein bars are quite challenging for me as they are so dense and this particular one was high in sugar and idk why as it’s the highest sugar out of the range but did not taste overtly sweet but it needed using as had been sat in my stash for a while and I want to make space to buy some more flavours and other protein bars to try
Yes they are dense but I am not gonna let Ana stop me having them as I adore protein bars ❌
This was on attempt to make up my intake after restricting earlier but as I did not add anything to my original plan I am still a bit short - but there is no way I could have added anything else as I struggled to even fit all this in as it was really late and even had to rush this which I hate doing I am disappointed 😞 In myself but of course Ana is loving it but she is not in control I am as I will try again tomorrow and show her who’s boss! I can’t let her keep winning and letting her think she’s in control as I will not get anywhere
As it’s never good enough as later in the thoughts still came thst I should have restricted more even though I did not reach my goal - just shows she never stops - I want my life back so we will fight again tomorrow! 🔒

Dinner from last night

Love Your Veg Onion Bhajia Vegetable Keema Masala with spinach on the side😍
OMG this was sooo good! Been wanting to try it for a while and I finally put it on planner Nit usually a fan of Indian food but I love onion Bhsjis but they do scare me so this healthier version sounded good
It was amazing - the keema masala was full of lush veg including potato 🥔 aubergine 🍆 onions peas and cabbage so colourful , all in a spicy tomato coriander sauce which was so flavourful with all the spices with just the right amount of spice not too hot though still a nice warmth - super tasty
Then the best bit was the Onuon Bhajia slices on top... WOW 👌🏻 they were insane so crispy on the top but then doughey and soft underneath where they absorbed some of the sauce they were nicely spiced and were just so yummy! 😋 saved them till last to savour the comforting deliciousness - maybe I do like Indian food?
Enjoyed this so much snd would defo have it again ‼️ Sainsbury’s are smashing it with this new range this is one of the best things in it I think! Been having some really nice dinners recently - they have all been peng
Did not struggle too much with this as it’s in the healthy range but is still quite dense so was perfect even though Ana was like onuon zbhajias are not healthy but it was 2 of your five a day so whatever
Sorry there are two different photo set ups of this meal - wasn’t sure which way round look best
PTW I did buy a work drink today as it’s on my plan
It was another flsvour of the Rubicon water I had the other day which I went with co op especially to get
However I did not drink it ‼️ I was not even planning to restrict I went to Morrisons after on my break as I always do where I bought my mum some shortbread bites I thought she would like as they were reduced and my dad done chocolate as I wanted to do a kind gesture as it was a Sunday to show how much I appreciate them but the time just got away, I had to go back before I knew it so had no time to drink my drink
However I was like it’s cool dad will ask if I have had it when I get home so I can just have it then..but then when I got home he said nothing about it I even..

Ate these kind of bread or little cake idk, tastes more like cake 😄 i ate it with the Lotus cream from biscoff and it tastes so much like gingerbread witch tastes like Christmas for me, I bought this in the Nederlands last week☺️*werbung wegen markenerkennung #gingerbread #biscoff #lotuscream #anarecovery #fightana #eatittobeatit #anorexia #edfight #anorexicrecovery #realcovery #recoverywin #fearfood #hugerecoverywin #healtynotskinny #recoveryispossible #healthyfood #healthylifestyle #superfood #recoveryisworthit #edfam #fitfood#tasty #edwarrior #veganiseasy #health #eatingdisorder #fuckana #miarecovery

can it get any better? 🤤💗 sadly I didn’t manage to eat the noodles and put them away.. just because my gluten or wheat intolerance is really messing with my digestive system 🙁🤷🏽‍♀️ Are there any good substitutes for noodles? —————————————————————— #food #recoverywin #anorexicrecovery #recoveryisworthit #ana #anorexia #anarecovery #ed #edrecovery

Ma se alla fine tutto finisse? Ma se dopo questo non ci fosse più niente? Ma se in realtà spero in qualcosa che non arriverà mai? E se questa fosse davvero la mia vita?
Ragazze sono in un momento abbastanza difficile, io ci sono ma non ci soni veramente.... Colazione con:
-The verde🍵🌱
-1 biscotto🍪
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{breakfast} I made myself oatmeal with one banana, mango, pumpkin, chia & hemp seeds! 🍌🤤 have an amazing day! 💗 ———————————————————————- #recoverywin #anorexicrecovery #anorexiarecovery #recoveryisworthit #anorexia #ana #anarecovery #ed #edrecovery #breakfast #bowl

Lunch today was 2 Garlic and Herb Jacobs Flatbreads with a Cheese 😱 🧀 String a ham slice
Wanted something really savoury for lunch so I put this combo on my plan and it hit the spot 👌🏻 I was not sure what to have but I really liked these flatbreads the other day and have a whole box to use 😂 so chose them
I spotted that Cheese Strings were on offer and was like OMG I used to love them I want to start challenging more fear foods so thought it was a good opportunity to challenge CHEESE 🧀 one of my most feared and thought this was a good place to start..baby steps
How could I say no with the cool Halloween 👻 🎃 packaging design either? Scarestrings hey? Yes they are scary they got that right , but not as scary as the effects of Anorexia The packaging is limited edition just like I my cheese fear hopefully will be 😂 the mummy on the front is Ana but soon it will disappear 👽
As it’s a kids snack I could kind of justify it more and thought it would be a bit easier
Still felt hella guilty after the thoughts were of course there but I told myself you have to start somewhere and i want to be able to have cheese again and doing the thing that causes most mental pain is the only way
It was good though but a lot smaller than I remember! Idk if it’s cod everything has shrunk these days or if it was cod I was small as a child they seemed bigger lol still have the cheesy joke or should I say *spooky joke on them though 😎
Oh and the random ham slice was to make up the cal s to the right amount even though Ana tried to convince me not to have it as it seemed unnecessary and an abnormal extra but I knew I needed it if I wanted to reach my goal so told her to go do one 💪🏻 So bit of an update about today you are probably wondering why there was no Breakfast post ? Well don’t worry I am not restricting I just did not plan to have any today it’s all cool guys
It’s cos I woke up late as slept in as I was so tired and had put denser things for my other meals on my meal plsn to make it up ✅ plus breakfast is the meal I struggle with most so thought it would make it easier to have a larger dinner etc just for today and it would also give me more time..

Night Snack was 2 Birthday 🍰Party 🎉 Oreos 👀

These are defo my fave flavour of Oreos they do atm - they are so sweet snd taste just like birthday cake icing which I love and the cream even has sprinkles in it!
It’s just a shame they were all broken in the packet 😞 which really annoyed my Perfectionism snd OCD and Ana was like you can’t eat them as they are not perfect enough but you have to break them to eat them so I ignored her as they did not taste any different and it does not make them any less valid
Night Snack was the only thing I had not written anything down on my plan for as I had no clue what to have? I really couldn’t decide and I had a certain amount of cals left so in the end my dad just went to bed telling me to pick something and told me how many cals it had to be - I feel bad that he trusted me to do that but he did say he would check that I had had it and told me to leave the wrapper out or else whatever that means
The fact he trusted me makes me think that my dad thinks I am not struggling and I am not deserving of food but that’s the ED talking - just hope he realises I still need support
It was really hard for me to do I debated it over and over in my head what to have it time was getting on so I needed to choose
I was craving something sweet so I saw these in my snack basket and thought why not? As I love Oreos my head did give me crap after as these are high in sugar and Ana said I should have had a less sugary option
Didn’t listen to that rubbish though and pushed through and enjoyed these and that’s the main thing
Reached my intake again ✅ and overall it was s positive day 💕 #recoverywin #anorexia #anorexicrecovery #anorexiafighter #ed #edrecovery #edfighter #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatittobeatit #foodisfuel ##challengerdemons #recoverywin #recovery #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #recoverforfreedom #anorexiarecovery #oreos #birthdaypartyoreos

Dinner from last night 😋
4 Falafel 🥙 with Four Bean Salad Houmous and Spinach - yum such a winning combo! 👍🏻 Been wanting to have this dinner for a while as I tried to have it the other week but Sainsbury’s were sold out the specific Falafels I wanted which is what triggered a melt down but dad bought 2 other sorts of falafels but I could not allow myself to have them as it was not perfect and planned so the meal did not fit my calories so I freaked out as changing things causes such anxiety
So when I put this dinner on my plan again I was very anxious in case the same thing happened..but 🤞🏻 luckily they had the right ones!
They are just the Sainsbury’s ones but they were defo worth waiting to have and all the fuss as they were so yummy
You could microwave them or oven cook them but I chose oven do they went nice and crispy 👀

Not had falafel in sooo long as they are s but if an irrational fear ⁉️ have not had them since size snd because if that my head tells me they are really dense and will msne me gain but that’s silly as this was all portioned plus I used really love them in IP the falafel burger and houmous falafel wrap meals we had there were SO peng like as hard as they were to eat them the fact they tasted so good made it a bit easier even though I was scared to admit back them I enjoyed the taste maybe that’s how their plsn works?
Prepared this all with my dad and it was not too stressful even though TE I weighed out all the falafels to find the smallest ones which annoyed my dad as he said it was pathetic and showed how I ill I was but if I hadn’t done it I don’t think I could have eaten them idk it just makes me feel s bit better knowing I have the smallest ones as falafels are hard 🛑
The four bean salad needed using up as I had half a peck in the fridge but when I measured it out it was s bit over what I had planned to have as there was over half left I initially freaked out but my dad reassured me a few extra beans would not make any difference so I just had the little bit extra in the end 💎
The othercfakafels my dad bought the other week are still sitting in the fridge which is stressing me out a bit...

These. Are. Just. So. Yummy !! 🤤🙌🏼💞 @twix bites ❣️ Twix lovers, you really NEED to try them 😆🌝❤️ —
All week I’ve been felt positive and confident and I am pretty happy about it ! 💞 I am eating what I want and crave ! I can say that this is real #intuitiveeating ! 🙌🏼 I thought about turning this acc more personal, but I actually have a personal acc (@__ana.mariaa__ ) so yeah , just gonna let it like this !! Also, my feed is literally only sweets but I kinda like it soo 🤷🏼‍♀️😂💞 I am so happy to have you guys, honesltly I love y’all so much!! Afer the hate on tellonym (i also deleted if because i wanna spread positivity not negativity) A LOT of you sendt me positive messages and I wanna thank you very much !! ❤️❤️❤️ LOVE YOU ALL ❤️❤️

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Well good MORNING warriors! So about yesterday....there was no full day of eating obviously...well there definitely was but I didn’t post t and I have to say it was kind of nice! We have been on vacation for the weekend and I decided to just let the day be and enjoy it for what it is! Then I was so blessed to wake up to this view....I will continue doing fdoes but just know sometimes it’s ok to break and btw I like sunrises 😉#anorexia #anorexicrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #bestrong #chooserecovery #edwin #eatittobeatit #eatingdisorderrecovery #edwarrior #edrecovery #foodisfuel #foodismedicine #fuelyourbody #goodeats #maleanorexia #recoverywin #recoverywarrior #recoveryisworthit #loveyourself #strongnotskinny #survivingandthriving

Had such an amazing response to my stories from yesterday... I was honestly amazed 💙 talking about an eating disorder - even if you have recovered - is never easy. There’s a part of me that feels ashamed, embarrassed & like a failure. But it is so important that we DO talk about these things - support each other and make one another feel valued 💫 Thank you so much to everyone that did that for me yesterday... I just hope I can do it for you too 💛 #selflovesunday

Lunch was this Chicken 🍗Salad
Can you tell I like chicken? 😂 it’s defo my fave meat tbh if it was not for chicken I could easily be pescatarian
Bernard Matthews Chicken Breast chunks with mixed Salad Cucumber 🥒 snd lots of zbBW sayce for that flavourrr
Mum this is a classic of mine and it’s quite safe but I like it so? 😎 my dinner is quite low in protein so I needed this to up my protein for the day
Have managed to prepare and get my meals with out too many issues today, there was a bit of tension putting it all out when I got home just as I was not in the best of moods and that makes it hard for me to eat but I will never want to eat so pulled myself together and helped my dad as he was tired and I did not want to cause a fuss
My dad helped my prepare this which made eating it a bit easier we did argue s bit doing it but nothing too dramatic happened
Quite proud that I am managing to do my food with my dad without refusing and causing too much stress and without having meltdowns over the past few days..feel like I might be making progress 💪🏻 If I can turn things around like that do can you guys! 🦋 #recoverywin #anorexia #anorexicrecovery #anorexiafighter #ed #edrecovery #edfighter #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatittobeatit #foodisfuel ##challengerdemons #recoverywin #recovery #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #recoverforfreedom #anorexiarecovery

Breakfast today - Nescafé Gold Skinny Cappuccino ☕️ 💖
Had no idea what to put on my plan but I wanted something quick and easy and I really enjoyed this the other day so thought it was a good option plus it’s coffee so what’s not to love?
As I had a iced coffee yesterday thought I would alternate it and have a hot one as do love how it warms me up! The froth is defo the best bit
My Dad had to buy more of these as we had run out and they were on offer I got really worried as he said he could not get the ones I have as they were sold out 😱 and he said he had got the closest thing he could but when he showed me thankfully he had got confused and the replacement is ones were actually my normal ones as he thought I have the original cappuccino but I don’t so tbh it was lucky the original version was sold out as if dad had bought them that would have caused a lot of problems..
This was my coffee fix today anyway
Do you guys prefer tea or coffee?

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