first off, before i give my introductions, look at this beautiful cheeseburger 😭🍔💕
hello beautiful people! since this is my first post, i thought i should introduce myself. i call myself oak on the internet, so hello! i'm 16 and from the usa.
*trigger warning after this point: talk of losing weight, restriction, self hate, depression*
just to give you some background, i struggle with a lot of self hate, depression, and anxiety, and a lot of that has channeled into my eating issues. i have struggled with an undiagnosed eating disorder for almost two years, and at first i didn't realize i had a problem. i lost a drastic amount of weight, but since i was overweight to begin with, no one saw it as a big deal. my mom expressed her concern at my lack of eating after six months of heavy restricting. my first attempt at recovery was one year ago, and i went vegan. i was vegan for six months and gained back my weight, leaving me more miserable and restrictive than before. i stopped being vegan and went back to restricting, and even though it was much harder than before i made myself keep trying to restrict my calories. now i finally realize how miserable this has made me. i know that i have a problem now, and i know that restricting my calories and the types of foods i eat are not going to help me get better. right now i have no intentions of going back to veganism, even though it is a helpful tool for some, but instead i want to focus on healing my body and my mind. so i've made this account to document my journey and how i am starting to love my body and be kind to it. love you all 💕