This #mamacita is off for 2 days of girlfriends, London Town and freedom.
It will be wonderful and I’m grateful for so many reasons to be able to go.
I often have to say no based on not having the money. I often say no because I’m at work.
At the moment I feel I should say no for other reasons. My other half is struggling and leaving him with the kids doesn’t feel ok.
The youngest appears to have started a new reign of terror at bedtimes and leaving that to one parent feels wrong. My kids had a chat today about me going away and agreed that if I’m away then those days won’t be ‘holiday’ days because ‘holiday means mum not being at work’ which gives me guilt.
I do know that time to oneself, to not think about anyone else, to feel fun and young; these moments allow me to be a better mum, an improved wife. And they don’t come along very often.
So, mixed feelings.
Excitement, guilt, pleasure, worry.
This adulting business is hard.
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