Oh my God I'm going to fucking kill someone! 2016 was the best year ever until it crashed and burned in December. The good news is January was supposed to be an epic month to get 2017 well on the way to being even better than 2016. Unfortunately, literally ALL my plans fell through and it has been an absolute fucking mess. I'm really starting to wonder if my time in Moscow has run its course. I'm having trouble with work, with money, with friends, with love. There have been a few bright spots but right when I think things are starting to turn, it all falls apart.
I woke up today around 4:30am after falling asleep at a relatively early hour for me (11pm-ish) and it took me a few hours just to cheer myself up for the day ahead. Just in a fucking rut right now. Did some reading to try and get caught up with all the news everyone is going crazy about but couldn't focus. What I really wanted to do was get some writing done. If not on my movie script then with my website, where I had hoped if I wrote at all the shit that has been stressing me out recently, I'd feel better. Then around 9-10am the drilling started as it does pretty much every day. It's now almost 6pm and it's still going. I've written 11 pages and it's all distracted and rambling bullshit. Seriously, WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING UP THERE?!?! It's so fucking loud I can't do anything. Watch TV, read, write, exercise, practice music, I can't even jerk off! God damnit! My fucking head! I'm so fucking angry right now. Angry Dustin usually means impulsive Dustin... For better or worse... SIGH. Get it together dude. This shall pass. This shall pass.... #moscow #apartment #construction #drilling #allday #angrydustin #quiet #shutthefuckup #stressed #distracted #depressed #timetomoveon #deepbreath #getittogether #cantstopthedchav #timetogotowork