Morning Intention: To feel anger as an energy in my body, to let it move, and to picture it flowing out my hands and feet.
We all want to heal from our old wounds, our old patterns, our old ways of being stuck. All too often, though, what keeps us from healing is the thought that we should never have felt discomfort in the first place. Strong anger or sadness arises and we think, "I wish I never felt this." In this way, we make healing a war on the past, and we lose sight of our present options. This is when we start to lash out blindly at others, at the world, at every passing irritation.
Healing is not a magic power we obtain from some troll under a bridge. Healing starts to happen naturally as soon as we shift from a mindset of purging to a mindset of letting things take their course. If you've eaten some unhealthy food, for example, in most cases the compassionate thing to do is just lie down and rest, not force yourself to vomit, and the same is true of most uncomfortable emotions: you don't need to try to purge them (you can't); you just need to understand their impermanent nature, let them be, and let them pass. But how do you deal with discomfort in the meantime?
Here's the practice: Today, when difficult emotions arise, especially anger, come down out of your thinking mind and feel these feelings as energies in the body. Anger often manifests in the face, chest, or throat. Notice the gathering of heat or pressure there, and have the intention to allow these sensations to move wherever and however they want. Don't try to get rid of anything! Eventually, you will be able to perceive the energy flowing down your arms and legs and out your hands and feet. Again, don't try to push it out — just let it flow. If you can do this, you will not find the emotions to be so scary, nor will you be so desperate to be done with them.
So may we all take care of ourselves happily. May we look after ourselves with ease. And may we not be so fearful in the face of what is impermanent.
#anger #sadness #difficult #emotions #healing #purging #embodied #awareness #hazratinayatkhan #mindfulness #meditation #love #sufism #islam