Not gonna lie this is a fucking hard post to post. I asked you guys if you wanted an anorexia transformation post.... so here you go. This is so hard for me to post because who knows what you guys will think, but I’m happy about where I am today in my fitness and health goal, so I think you guys deserve to know part of my journey. ❤️ FULL STORY IN COMMENTS -PLEASE GET HELP. YOU NEED IT.
It's been 3 years since I was admitted to hospital for anorexia nervosa, depression and bulimia nervosa. And when I took these before photos, I still believed I had to loose more weight. My eating disorder never was satisfied with what I looked like. My thighs were always too big,stomach not flat enough. I was so depressed, i exercised for 3 hours everyday, I had no friends, no social life, always moody and grumpy. My mind constantly thinking about weight and food. only eating one piece of toast for breakfast and a tiny salad for dinner. Going into EXTREME binges because I was starving and then purging up all my food that I felt guilty about. This would happen every afternoon, I would binge on anything and everything, nutrigrain, bread, baked beans. I would eat twice my weight in food then feel so sick from eating so much because my body was so deprived. I would then run to the bathroom and stick my fingers down my throat until every piece of food I ate came up. Telling my parents that i wasn't hungry all the time and that I had eaten. Eating only one bite of their meals and telling them I already ate or I wasn’t hungry.
I got admitted to the emergency department at cambelltown hospital the 1st April, Friday night, after my GP told me I needed emergency help. Arriving at hospital, with a heart rate of 30, the doctors said that if I didn't come when I did I would of died of heart failure. I was placed in the emergency section and then moved to the children's ward in the hospital. I had a nasogastric tube stuffed into my nose and down my throat which fed me food every night, along with 6 meals a day, breakfast, morning tea, lunch, afternoon tea, dinner and supper, and I had to follow a strict meal plan. If I didn't eat all the foods given to