I have been feeling unhappy since last september... so it has been 10 months. Some of my friends know the reasons, some don't... But it's not important though.
A word to describe me at that time? Weak? emotional? insecure? desperated? or simply just "sad".
How did it happen? Murphy's law. It's like you can't stay away from dramas. The just come and you have to fight no matter you are ready or not.
Through the whole time, i can't sleep at night. I stay up until 4 am or sometimes, i didn't sleep at all. I was afraid of tomorrow to come, then i will have to fight my battle on my own. It was too much and i'm way too weak.
I didn't think i could ever get out of the box that i was stuck inside
But things are changing.
I can feel it. Little by little, my heart is healing. I see things get brighter. I feel happy not because i have to prove it to anyone. I'm just happy.
I start feeling excited for a new day to come. I;m not afraid of time flying. I don't think about the bad memories and cry anymore. I let it go. I for give people who hurt me and i forgive myself.
I don't care about what others may think about me anymore. I', responsiblle for my feelings, not anyone else and i won't let others to control it. I choose how to live my days. I know there is someone who loves me always. I'm not alone and i will never be.
Yeah, that's life, it will always give you a break when you finish a lesson, then you will be ready for the next one.
and it's alright, cos we will always bounce back
So I am writing this to send hope to some people who may need it now, or some of my friends who are struggling to their own problems.
Just remember, though you when you are happy, that feelings will not last forever, but if you are feeling sad, the pain is not permanent. #kristydrawings #hope #thejourneyofme #andmycat #watercolors #illustration