#anarecovery

MOST RECENT

Acceptance is such a big thing in recovery. For so long I was in denial that there was a serious problem. It was only when I accepted that I was knocking on death’s door and accepted help, that I was finally inviting recovery. Obviously I am not 100% recovered and I feel that there will always be an element of anorexia with me, but I have realised that I do not regret my eating disorder. It has helped me shape the person I am today and I can use it to my advantage with different life experiences. I have also become more open about my struggles with my friends and I cannot stress how amazing and supportive they all are. I am soooo SO lucky🤟🏼••• Yesterday I went for brunch with one of my managers from work. I was so touched as he said that it’s very rare for him to want to spend time with people from work outside of work. We went to @toppaddock and had champagne, coffee and food in the sun. How spontaneous!🥂

Dinner tonight was a home made pasta sauce of beans, crushed tomatoes, onion, mushrooms, and herbs mixed with spaghetti squash noodles 🍝 I also had unpictured salad 🥗 with this, and half a leftover sandwich 🥪 .
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PTW
Today has been kinda rough. I haven’t been getting enough sleep (jet lag I think), and I know I haven’t been eating enough either. Yesterday I roughly counted my calories for the first time in two weeks and I was definitely under what I need to gain. At least now I understand why my body image has been terrible this past week- whenever I don’t eat enough the negative thoughts about my body become so much stronger and I truly find it hard to see myself as others see me. It’s only when I occasionally catch a glimpse of myself in the window next to other people that I see I really do need to eat more. When I’m at home and I see myself alone in the mirror, I only seem to see what my ED tells me to lose rather than what I need to gain. I also went to the gym today, and I know I trained for longer than I would have done back home. The voice was there, telling me to just do a little bit more, and then I would feel better. I don’t feel better. I’m definitely a bit worried because I haven’t even been away from home a week yet and I already seem to be struggling. But I know there’s only one way out of this- ignore my ED and actually EAT enough food. .
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I know that I can do this. I don’t want to fall back into my previous life totally trapped and constantly tormented by anorexia. I will get better. I will keep fighting.
I hope you are still fighting too 💜
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#eatittobeatit #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #anorexia #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #realrecovery #recoveryishard #strongnotskinny #prorecovery #edfam #edwarrior #edfighter #edsoldier #eatingdisorder #vegan #vegetarian #spaghettisquash #plantbased #dairyfree #eggfree #glutenfree #strongnotskinny #homemade #madefromscratch

6:30 pm
Snack 🥝
Today I had a whole mango, banana, golden kiwi, and an entire bowl of kashi almond crunch cereal.

So many positives today🤗 I don't even know where to begin💓 I finally completed my last day at IOP! That means no more getting up at 5AM, hours of driving a day or missing class! But more importantly, it means MORE time to work on my recovery in an outpatient setting, spending time exploring the city and hanging out with friends🌸
There were countless times I wanted to "quit" treatment, or even sign out against medical advice. But wow, am I glad I stayed. They say great things take time. And the process of learning to accept myself is taking just that, time. Slowly but surely, progress is being made😌☮ My wonderful friend surprised me with flowers this afternoon🌼🌼🌼 and just as I thought that the day could not get any better, I came home to a package with these beautiful bracelets from @realcoveryjewelry I am actually so excited to wear them to school tomorrow✨💪 ----> use the code AMY10 to get 10% off of any @realcoveryjewelry purchase

ended the day 🎉
my #nightsnack was a big cookie !! It was a #recoverywin since I was satisfied with the dinner, but I ate it anyway 🌸🌸 How have you been today? be strong, keep fighting, tomorrow will be much better 💖
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#anarecovery #recoverywin #recoveryana
#edrecovery #ed #notdiet #nodieta #recoverywarrior #recoveryisworthit #healthynoskinny #recovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #bodypositive #edrecovering #edwarrior #edwarriors #eatforlive #liveforeat #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #fearfood #edfighter #anafighter #cookie #bigcookie

Legit best thing I've ever eaten. 🤩
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Stuffed spaghetti squash topped with a blob of cilantro hummus and drizzled with tahini. 😍

#supper : Peanut butter & banana sub bun, veggies, fruit, candy, banana pie pudding, steamed Carmel milk.
#eveningsnack : Carmel ice cream cone.
This evening I didn't do too much which is good I guess. The evening snack was a challenge because my mom kept insisting that I had the ice cream even though I didn't want to but I did it. I feel terrible now but at least I finished it all 😐. #ed #edsucks #edfighter #edrecovery #edisnotachoice #ana #anasucks #anafighter #anarecovery #anaisnotmyfriend #eattolive #eatwhatyouwant #eatingdisorderecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #allfoodisgoodfood #foodisfuel #foodislife #foodismedicine #foodisnottheenemy #foodisgood #icecream #carmelicecream

My ed is my best friend & worst enemy. My heaven & my hell. It stripes me of my identity & values. Steals my happiness. It’s all gone before you can bat an eye. It convinces you “it won’t be like that this time” until ed is controlling your every thought & every action. Tomorrow is a new day, another chance to fight. I want to come back home to myself 💕

they will not put me a probe anymore!! 😭♥️
I'm very Happy!✨😊
#anorexiarecovery #anorexiafighter #mentalhealth #anarecovery

Mitad de semana!!
Déjenme les cuentoo que este mugcake de espinaca está delicioso como desayuno o snack!!
Especial para antes de la escuela o el gym 💪🏽 —————————————
HELLO!!
Let me tell ya....
that this mugcake spinach is perfect for a sweet and healthy breakfast or a snack!!
Specially before school or the gym 💯💯💪🏽👌🏽
#anarecovery #recovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #breakfast #foodporn #foodie #foodstagram #instafood #instalike #desayunosaludable #desayuno #fitness #fitlife #yummy #healthyfood #comidasana #nutricion #eatgreen #twinslife

Breakfast:
Pancakes ~
Brunch:
Porridge, yogurt, & raspberries ~
Lunch:
Almond butter & raspberry sandwich & dark chocolate ~
Dinner:
Chicken breast, sweet potato, veggies, & milk ~
Snack:
RX bar & macadamia nuts ~
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#eatingdisorder #anorexia #recovery #recovering #ed #fearfood #disorder #ana #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #food #eating #breakfast #lunch #dinner #delicious #health #healthyrecovery #healthy #foodie

‘‘Twas my supper and snack 😋 I am looking forward to seeing my dietician tomorrow. Today I’ve felt super weak and medically unstable from starving myself. I deserve more than this. I shouldn’t be waiting to sit down because standing is requiring too much energy for me during church. 😓
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#eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexiafighter #recovery #mentalhealth #edrecovery #prorecovery #anarecovery #foodisfuel #eatittobeatit #bodypositive #bodiposi #morethananumber #bopo #eatingdisorder #vegan #veganeats #veganrecovery #plantbased #recoveryisworthit #anorexia #anawarrior #anafighter #anorexiawarrior #ed #ana #anawho #nourishtoflourish #healthyeating #edfighter

Another absolute #truthbomb 💣 from the brilliant @mollybcounseling 💎
No wonder we are all so confused as to what to put in our mouth, #dietculture uses fear about soooo many different foods. For just a second, take a step back and remember we have excellent food safety standards, there are no bad foods. This high level of restrictive advice constantly streaming through diet and wellness culture is disordered eating. 💎
Be critical and call it what it is, restrictive eating behaviours are disordered eating and the biggest risk factor to eating disorder development

CENA de miercoles❤
~ 2 hamburguesas, una de calabaza y la otra de quinoa ~ arroz con 1 palta ( 3ra foto es lo que dejé)
~ 4 zanahorias
Estoy re enojada porque me dijeron que "me pasé" con la cena, yo la verdad que no lo sentí asi
#anorexianerviosa #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #edfighter #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatforlife #eatingdisorder #fight #fightforrecovery #beatingana #beatana #fuckana #fuckyouana #fearfood #foodstagram #foodporn #eat #beatinganorexia #nomeloprohibo #nodiet #nofit #bodyrecovery #body #norestrictions #recoverywin

This account has changed so much since I first created it 4 years ago.
It started out as a private, filtered account of beginning to consider recovery and health/exercise posts.
Since then it has grown into a place where I share my journey through motherhood and speak my truth. A place I can openly write my struggle with an eating disorder, anxiety, depression, ptsd and alcoholism.
When I first started this account, I was 22, often drunk, eating very little and obsessing over eating "clean", going to the gym for hours a day and consumed by anxiety. I believed my eating disorder was my identity.
Now? I'm a mom, I manage my symptoms, I've been sober 3 years and on most days, I intuitively eat what I want. I know who I am, I love who I am.
This account isn't perfect - neither am I. But thank you for sharing this journey with me anyway. <3

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